babyedwards

I've been prescribed clonazepam to take in the mornings and every few hours as needed. Instead of drinking. This is a massive change for me. 6 years of drinking and I'm gonna wake up and take a pill not open a beer. Wish me luck!

Dee74

I hope this is a turning point for you

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babyedwards

It has to be. I've got too much to lose if it's not. I have to do this.

Delilah1

I hope things go well, stay in contact with your doctor to help monitor the medication, and any possible effects, also, dosages.

babyedwards

Will do. Thank you.

D122y

Baby,

Whatever it takes to get clean.

I am not a fan of benzos, but i understand the hell addiction can cause in a brain.

I still have ptsd from getting clean drug free.

It was a living hell.

Thanks.

babyedwards

Because of the severity of my anxiety they gave my the clonze. I am a little nervous to take them too but it's a baby dose. .5mg I will be weaned of in 7 days. And from then on out it's up to me. That's when the real work begins. That's when I'm gonna need you guys. So keep your heads up cause I'll be around.

soupcon

I am so pleased to hear this! I was going to suggest this but wasn't sure you were ready. I hope you stay on SR as much as possible and report how it's going.

babyedwards

I most certainly will. It's 6 30 am right now and I've had about 2 hours of sleep. I'm not feeling too bad right now so I'm going to lay back down and get a bit more shut eye. My face is a bit hot but other than that I'm ok. I'll be taking my first dose of clonazepam when I wake back up again for the day

August252015

Glad you are working with your doctor. I am a believer that the right drugs taken the right way can be great support tools for sobriety.

What's your plan for getting and staying sober?

babyedwards

I'm flying by the seat of my panties right now. I have no idea. I'm looking at changing my routine and adding in meditation and exercise. I've purchased a elliptical machine. I've informed a couple friends as well who have given me their full support and on call if I need them at any time. So.....any suggestions as to what to do next would he helpful and welcomed

MidnightRider

Sounds like a plan.... Stay the course and you will get though this.

babyedwards

Well....this is not going exactly as planned.

soupcon

What's happening?

babyedwards

I've just given in and had some shots. Felt panic coming on. Ugh. Im terrible.

soupcon

Did you take the anti-anxiety med first thing? Perhaps the dose is insufficient.

babyedwards

Honestly..i didn't even take it.. f*** sakes. Im so mad at myself

Ariesagain

Step one: remove all alcohol from house, yes?

Dee74

I think aries suggestion is sound.

Get rid of all the alcohol in your house - by dumping it, not drinking it.

Impress upon your husband that he simply can't buy any more for you.

Then take the medication your Dr prescribed for you

It's a leap of faith... but a pretty safe one babyedwards - look at all the happy people in recovery here

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PhoenixJ

LUCK- eek! not luck- but support. If you do what you know you have to do, work at it, have a plan...luck has very little to do with my recovery now. Just like I used to have the same degree of sincerity and remorse filled guilt to stop drinking, I hoped I could- with luck..but I did not change-me.
Support to you.