Three weeks today!
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Three weeks today!
I've been drinking more and more heavily for about 19 years now (wow, until I added it up I didn't realize). I had a fair number of dry days during that time, and twice made pretty good attempts at a permanent sobriety - once for 30 days and once for 100. Of course, as soon as I hit those milestones I figured I'd proved something and immediately "rewarded" myself with a binge, then kept right on drinking.
I can still feel some of those destructive thoughts (that "reward" concept, sick as it is, is still sneaking around in my head), but this time feels different. Maybe it's just that I've tried every variety of moderation I could come up with and seen them all fail.
To paraphrase one of my fictional heroes "When you have eliminated the impossibility of moderation, whatever remains, however improbable, must be the truth." May permanent sobriety be the truth in my life from here on!
I can still feel some of those destructive thoughts (that "reward" concept, sick as it is, is still sneaking around in my head), but this time feels different. Maybe it's just that I've tried every variety of moderation I could come up with and seen them all fail.
To paraphrase one of my fictional heroes "When you have eliminated the impossibility of moderation, whatever remains, however improbable, must be the truth." May permanent sobriety be the truth in my life from here on!
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,well done on three weeks. I once achieved that, with a little half hearted effort in AA, then drank again. When I came off that binge I went back to AA with a different attitude and never drank again.
I well remember that first day back. Thinking how will I ever get three weeks up again. That is 21 whole days without a drink, an incredibly long time. I didn't think is was possible, but one of the old timers said "one day at a time" and he was right. It was and is what I do today that counts.
It seems my perception of time was somewhat distorted back then. I reckon the first 20 days is longer than the first 20 years. 21 days is a great achievement in my book, and what you do today will determine if there will be day 22.
I well remember that first day back. Thinking how will I ever get three weeks up again. That is 21 whole days without a drink, an incredibly long time. I didn't think is was possible, but one of the old timers said "one day at a time" and he was right. It was and is what I do today that counts.
It seems my perception of time was somewhat distorted back then. I reckon the first 20 days is longer than the first 20 years. 21 days is a great achievement in my book, and what you do today will determine if there will be day 22.
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'GADS, Watson- THE GAME'S AFOOT!
Well done on 3 weeks. Using the same storylines.....I knew there was a storm that did come- and everything did change. Now I know some storms are best not experienced. Sobriety is a better, more peaceful and far less damaging path.
Support to you.
Well done on 3 weeks. Using the same storylines.....I knew there was a storm that did come- and everything did change. Now I know some storms are best not experienced. Sobriety is a better, more peaceful and far less damaging path.
Support to you.
Keep going, it gets better. 
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Originally Posted by Lascaux 
To paraphrase one of my fictional heroes "When you have eliminated the impossibility of moderation, whatever remains, however improbable, must be the truth." May permanent sobriety be the truth in my life from here on!
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Well done on 3 weeks! I have 3 weeks today also, and although I've had some of the familiar, damaging thoughts, my resolve is growing with each week and I am so happy to be on track towards a healthy and sober life. I hope you are feeling happy and positive about this change for the better too!
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