Hey am back
Earth Child
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Join Date: Mar 2011
Location: Edinburgh, Scotland
Posts: 2,004
Hey am back
Hi sorry i havent been around much , things have been going mostly ok
been kinda messing myself up with my eating disorder and mentally self injuring but i havent had drink or drugs for a while
i havent self injured for psychically for 2 months i am trying to deal with my mental health am going to try and be here more than i have been
the last time i was here i said i found AA/NA/OA Too rigid its not that at all my husband says av been back and forth to AA/NA/OA a lot for some reason am not sticking to it and that is my fault
i would go back to the meetings but my husband refuses to see that i need it so i am just sticking with online at the moment i find meetings very hard to deal with i know you dont have to talk i know you dont have to read either but the last time i was there , there was very small amount of people there and i felt i HAD to read am dyslexic and i have problems speaking or reading in front of other basically i messed it up and now i feel that i cant do that again the fear i have is making me want to run away i need to try and explain that to someone but sometimes if i say no or that i have problems with reading people will think am dumb or something
also my husband will not take my mental health has become so bad that am a danger to myself if am on my own having to explain this at every meeting is hard when i feel paranoid i know i can give all the reasons in the world i need to try and work on myself first before i can go back to meetings
I hope you are all doing well , stay safe and stay sober
been kinda messing myself up with my eating disorder and mentally self injuring but i havent had drink or drugs for a while
i havent self injured for psychically for 2 months i am trying to deal with my mental health am going to try and be here more than i have been
the last time i was here i said i found AA/NA/OA Too rigid its not that at all my husband says av been back and forth to AA/NA/OA a lot for some reason am not sticking to it and that is my fault
i would go back to the meetings but my husband refuses to see that i need it so i am just sticking with online at the moment i find meetings very hard to deal with i know you dont have to talk i know you dont have to read either but the last time i was there , there was very small amount of people there and i felt i HAD to read am dyslexic and i have problems speaking or reading in front of other basically i messed it up and now i feel that i cant do that again the fear i have is making me want to run away i need to try and explain that to someone but sometimes if i say no or that i have problems with reading people will think am dumb or something
also my husband will not take my mental health has become so bad that am a danger to myself if am on my own having to explain this at every meeting is hard when i feel paranoid i know i can give all the reasons in the world i need to try and work on myself first before i can go back to meetings
I hope you are all doing well , stay safe and stay sober
Earth Child
Thread Starter
Join Date: Mar 2011
Location: Edinburgh, Scotland
Posts: 2,004
my husband says i shouldnt go to the AA meeting as at the moment am not having problems with drinking...but i have an addictive personality and i need help for that unsure if its still ok for me to go to AA if am not struggling with drink
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