Ch Ch Ch Ch Changes!
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Ch Ch Ch Ch Changes!
So folks today is 90 days! I'm not supposed to be counting time in AVRT but I told myself I'd recognize 30 days, 90 days, 6 months, one year and after that the yearly anniversary.
So many positive changes have happened in my life since quitting, my mental health and cognitive functions have improved dramatically. Physically I feel great, I work out now and actually look forward to it. My overall appearance has improved, my eyes aren't all bloodshot and I'm not bloated and exhausted looking all the time. I used to catch reflections of myself and be startled by how I'd let myself go..... I would think OMG what have you done to yourself? That is starting to turn itself around as I lose weight and take better care of myself.
My relationships are much improved, I can tell how much more relaxed and at ease my children are now that they don't have the stress of dealing with drunk me. I'm still dealing with the guilt and shame of putting them through that, it was wrong of me and I'll go to my grave feeling sorry that I didn't clean up my act sooner. I've rekindled a relationship with my dear sister who I'd pushed away these last few years as my drinking escalated.
I've developed new hobbies and interests. I'm can play a few simple songs on the guitar now that actually sound half decent. My boat just went in the water so I'm looking forward to that this summer.
The best part is the feeling of freedom that I have now. It just feels so good to have quiet in my head! That constant obsession to try to control the drinking and plan it and regret it and hate myself over it is finally gone! I'm not walking around with this secret and feeling like I'm less than and contaminated and dirty. I can look people in the eye. I can look myself in the eye.
I just want to thank this place and everyone here! If it wasn't for SR and all the lovely people on here with their patience and guidance and wisdom I don't think I'd be able to say that I finally feel like I have this! This is where I learned about AVRT.
xxoo
So many positive changes have happened in my life since quitting, my mental health and cognitive functions have improved dramatically. Physically I feel great, I work out now and actually look forward to it. My overall appearance has improved, my eyes aren't all bloodshot and I'm not bloated and exhausted looking all the time. I used to catch reflections of myself and be startled by how I'd let myself go..... I would think OMG what have you done to yourself? That is starting to turn itself around as I lose weight and take better care of myself.
My relationships are much improved, I can tell how much more relaxed and at ease my children are now that they don't have the stress of dealing with drunk me. I'm still dealing with the guilt and shame of putting them through that, it was wrong of me and I'll go to my grave feeling sorry that I didn't clean up my act sooner. I've rekindled a relationship with my dear sister who I'd pushed away these last few years as my drinking escalated.
I've developed new hobbies and interests. I'm can play a few simple songs on the guitar now that actually sound half decent. My boat just went in the water so I'm looking forward to that this summer.
The best part is the feeling of freedom that I have now. It just feels so good to have quiet in my head! That constant obsession to try to control the drinking and plan it and regret it and hate myself over it is finally gone! I'm not walking around with this secret and feeling like I'm less than and contaminated and dirty. I can look people in the eye. I can look myself in the eye.
I just want to thank this place and everyone here! If it wasn't for SR and all the lovely people on here with their patience and guidance and wisdom I don't think I'd be able to say that I finally feel like I have this! This is where I learned about AVRT.
xxoo
Keep going, it gets better. 
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"That constant obsession to try to control the drinking and plan it and regret it and hate myself over it is finally gone! I'm not walking around with this secret and feeling like I'm less than and contaminated and dirty. I can look people in the eye. I can look myself in the eye."
Yes, Yes, and Yes!!!
Yes, Yes, and Yes!!!
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Originally Posted by 2ndhandrose 
"That constant obsession to try to control the drinking and plan it and regret it and hate myself over it is finally gone! I'm not walking around with this secret and feeling like I'm less than and contaminated and dirty. I can look people in the eye. I can look myself in the eye."
Yes, Yes, and Yes!!!
Yes, Yes, and Yes!!!
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