Embarrassed and Nervous
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Embarrassed and Nervous
Tomorrow I have to take my lumps at work about something my drinking caused. Even though I will be 41 days sober tomorrow this feels like my rock bottom. It certainly is a consequence of my rock bottom year. The e will not be aware at work that excessive drinking contributed to the situation. I have been feeling very defensive and humiliated about the upcoming meeting involving this situation and have been tempted to present plausible deniability or make round about excuses. But as I am writing this, it has just occurred to me that maybe this is part of making amends for my drinking behaviour. I won't be confessing my alcoholism in this meeting as that will be career suicide, but maybe I will just quietly accept whatever happens. I don't know. This sucks though. I brought it on myself. At least I am sober.
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Thanks again all, I will check in tomorrow. . Perhaps my fear is irrational. I was ( I thought) a pretty high functioning alcoholic until the last few months ( and even then, I was still high functioning in output; I just lost some physical stamina) and I have a pretty good reputation at work so I am worried that I have sent 26 years of positive employment crashing. Maybe it will all be fine. I will let you know. It is so ironic to me that I may be called out while sober when years and years of drinking at night and feeling cruddy in the morning passed by with no one saying 'boo.' That is because I dragged myself into work hungover, but I took the last of my sick days when withdrawing from alcohol. Now I have to explain why my absenteeism is higher this year than previous ones. Oh the irony.
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If I may offer advice, Tertor, don't tell them about the drinking. In my opinion, that never goes well. Simply say it's been a rough year for personal reasons, that you are not comfortable sharing it, things are better now, and it won't happen again.
End of story.
End of story.
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You do not have to talk of the issue with alcohol. Just acknowledge their concerns, whatever they may be, and move forward. 26 years is quite a long road of good employment. I highly doubt they are going to fire you.
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I worked in HR for my company for a few years, still work closely with HR. If you have a good history and a decent manager....you'll be fine. Staying sober and on track obviously matters! I look forward to hearing how it goes. Stay positive and strong.
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I'm glad to hear that too Tertor, I read your post yesterday and was thinking of you hoping for the best. I've got things coming up too for me that give me bad nerves so I am happy to hear your story 
I hope things keep getting better and better thanks for the update!
I hope things keep getting better and better
thanks for the update!
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