TWTOM's Accountability Thread
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TWTOM's Accountability Thread
I can't undo the past.
But if it repeats, I'm looking at cirrhosis, pancreatitis, suicide, more shame / embarrassment / self-hatred, and I don't know what else.
So I will post on this thread at least twice a day. Morning and night.
But if it repeats, I'm looking at cirrhosis, pancreatitis, suicide, more shame / embarrassment / self-hatred, and I don't know what else.
So I will post on this thread at least twice a day. Morning and night.
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The chat room has been absolutely invaluable for me. I am committed to this path, and the commitment is getting stronger every hour.
All I have to look forward to is illness, shame and self hatred if I go back to drinking. The choice is becoming clearer by the minute.
Thanks for this thread.
All I have to look forward to is illness, shame and self hatred if I go back to drinking. The choice is becoming clearer by the minute.
Thanks for this thread.
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I really wanted to drink tonight.
I had a craving like CRAZY and my roommates are shunning me (not on purpose... I'm just not really likable, especially drunk which they believe is the real me). So I isolate in my basement by myself doing computer programming and other boring crap.
I try to reach out to my roommate via ***** chat (long story, but that has been our thing), but I think he hates me for hitting on his girlfriend when I was drunk. He hasn't said anything, but somehow I think he knows. And again, that's not the person I am. That's the ******* that comes out when I drink.
All of my roommates get to smoke weed all they want with little to no repercussions. I have one drink and I'm looking the entire pint (of whiskey) straight in the eyes. And then I go get more so I don't feel like crap.
I don't know if I can do this...
I had a craving like CRAZY and my roommates are shunning me (not on purpose... I'm just not really likable, especially drunk which they believe is the real me). So I isolate in my basement by myself doing computer programming and other boring crap.
I try to reach out to my roommate via ***** chat (long story, but that has been our thing), but I think he hates me for hitting on his girlfriend when I was drunk. He hasn't said anything, but somehow I think he knows. And again, that's not the person I am. That's the ******* that comes out when I drink.
All of my roommates get to smoke weed all they want with little to no repercussions. I have one drink and I'm looking the entire pint (of whiskey) straight in the eyes. And then I go get more so I don't feel like crap.
I don't know if I can do this...
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Originally Posted by ThatWasTheOldMe;6468981[B
]I am so glad I didn't drink last night. [/B] Regardless of everything. All my little insecurities that come to the surface when I sober up.
Today marks day 7.
Today marks day 7.
Keep going, it gets better with each passing day. 
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