FormerWineGirl

I thought about changing my name - logging in as a new person with a fresh start on this sight. But that's not what this is about. I want to be accountable. I came on here a couple of times during this bout knowing full well exactly what I need to do. I had two good years sober - and I blew it. In my mind's eye, I still had the illusion that I could control this.

Folks, look back at my posts. I knew how this would turn out, yet I had to test it again. Please, please let this be a cautionary tale. Embarrassment be damned.

Love to all.

least

When I relapsed back in '07, I threw away 20 yrs sober. It took me two years to get sober again, and I now have over 7 yrs.

Try again and don't let yourself fall for that BS anymore.

PhoenixJ

hi!

FormerWineGirl

Least, I have always admired you. Thank you ☺

FormerWineGirl

Hi PheonixJ, thanks for reading 😊

Mattq2

Good for you wine girl. After seven years of sobriety I thought I could control it and didn't. I'm back sober again.

You can do it. You know how. Establish a new plan. We are all here for you.

FormerWineGirl

Thank you Mattq2, it is comforting to hear others having had weathered the storm and came out on the other side.

Mattq2

You can do it. Like you said don't ever give up.

Dee74

I'm glad you're back FWG - that means you have the willingness to beat this

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Soberandhealthy

I once years ago had almost 90 days and just recently had 18 days. After failing again I just wanted to give up.
I end up hitting my head on a wall with a huge bump and having to go to work with the worst hangover ever. Unable to sleep my legs kept moving on their own my hands would shake and just wake me up.

I had to take painkillers to try to calm myself and almost three days later I'm still dealing with the depression awful angry mood and the restless legs and hands. I had never experienced something like this I think I'm done this is scary withdrawal symptoms.

soberandhonest

We can just call you formerformerwinegirl. Welcome back! Thanks for sharing.

gettingsmarter

Welcome back!

ScottFromWI

Welcome back FWgirl. You know how it works...and you can do it again. Learn from it and make the necessary changes, you can absolutely be back in a better place.

Berrybean

Glad you're back and pushing choosing recovery over pride. That's the way to go.

How's your recovery plan for this time shaping up? What are you going to do differently to the last time? The way to get the positive out of relapses is by using them to educate ourselves and strengthen future attempts by using what we learn to good effect.

Glad you're back. BB

Delilah1

I'm glad you are back!! I have 16.5 months sober, but my join date is 2012. It took me a while to finally get this right.

PhoenixJ

No not thanks to me- thanks to you- all of us- for turning the crap of drinking into a supportive community. Keep posting fwg.

kenton

Thanks FormerWineGirl for posting and spelling out what happens when we relapse. My heart knows what will happen if I ever pick up a drink again. Reading posts like yours reinforces it to my brain. And I can never get enough reinforcement in this battle with my AV. So thank you and good luck. You've done it before, you can do it again

Meraviglioso

Good for you for choosing honesty and coming back. You can do this again. We are all here for you!

bimbott

Hi FWG, thanks for sharing. Reaching the point where I think can control my drinking is the biggest fear for me.

FreeOwl

Welcomeback..... I'm glad you're here. U can.