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Day 10
Am very excited about day 10. This is the longest I've managed ever except when I was arrested the first time.
Am sweating this morning and feel hungover, though. Weird. Going to Body Combat now.
Second thoughts, a bit scared to go out the door to see what **** ups I'll manage to do today. I didn't realise I'd have to change so much. I don't reckon I can call myself sober but I'm definitely in recovery.
Thinking of you all.
Am sweating this morning and feel hungover, though. Weird. Going to Body Combat now.
Second thoughts, a bit scared to go out the door to see what **** ups I'll manage to do today. I didn't realise I'd have to change so much. I don't reckon I can call myself sober but I'm definitely in recovery.
Thinking of you all.
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Ok. Not getting through today smoothly. Was complaining about someone to a lady (not alcoholic) and she said I always find that the problem is in me. Must have wisdom built in, some people. So I went for a run to see if it would tire me out of my nonsense head. Now I am wet through again and looking for mischief to get up to.
I have a confession to make too. I am jealous of alcoholics who didn't lose everything. I know, I know. That's just a new emotional rock bottom. I want a family and children. I've got a car and a dog though, so it could be worse. They were giving out bedding in the car park after the meeting last night to some poor souls. But then again, there was a young drunk kicking off in a nice part of the city, ranting at god, and my companion said he should be euthanized. I felt quite bad then.
Sorry to write so much. Am feeling a bit cocky today. Danger danger.
I have a confession to make too. I am jealous of alcoholics who didn't lose everything. I know, I know. That's just a new emotional rock bottom. I want a family and children. I've got a car and a dog though, so it could be worse. They were giving out bedding in the car park after the meeting last night to some poor souls. But then again, there was a young drunk kicking off in a nice part of the city, ranting at god, and my companion said he should be euthanized. I felt quite bad then.
Sorry to write so much. Am feeling a bit cocky today. Danger danger.
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Way to go. I lost 5 lbs on the scale this morning and my eyes are definitely whiter, which must be a good sign from my liver. I might even have a go at some yoga tomorrow. I'm going to hunt out my mat.
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Nice job on 10 days Weev! Congrats! Keep the exercise up too. I found that to be the most important part of my recovery plan. I worked out like a madman those first several weeks - ran a half marathon a month after my sobriety date and a full marathon 6 months later. I still exercise a lot. Anyway, sorry for the exercise rant, but awesome job!
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Good. Day 10. It doesn't matter what tantrums your alcoholic voice has, there is no reason whatsoever for picking up that first drink. Nothing to be jealous of - pouring poison into their body is not exactly a reason for envy. Pity or compassion maybe.
Yoga sounds nice. I agree with Soberandhonest, exercise is a big part of my recovery plan.
Yoga sounds nice. I agree with Soberandhonest, exercise is a big part of my recovery plan.
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Originally Posted by soberandhonest 
Nice job on 10 days Weev! Congrats! Keep the exercise up too. I found that to be the most important part of my recovery plan. I worked out like a madman those first several weeks - ran a half marathon a month after my sobriety date and a full marathon 6 months later. I still exercise a lot. Anyway, sorry for the exercise rant, but awesome job!
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Originally Posted by biminiblue
Good. Day 10. It doesn't matter what tantrums your alcoholic voice has, there is no reason whatsoever for picking up that first drink. Nothing to be jealous of - pouring poison into their body is not exactly a reason for envy. Pity or compassion maybe.
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What do you mean, "Keep going?" Well, you're probably at the meeting by now...
I didn't feel anything close to sanity at day 10. It takes as long as it takes, it's not easy and the addicted side of you is going to start screaming for a drink at every opportunity - especially now that you are feeling a bit better. Racing thoughts, negative memories, fear, resentments. . .all that. It doesn't matter - all this will settle down. Every uncomfortable thought and emotion will pass.
Stay the course. Repeat to yourself, "I don't drink." The thoughts are going to come, don't fight with them, just say - "Uh huh. That's not going to happen. I don't drink." Play that tape all the way through to how you would feel afterwards - the shame, regret, illness, disappointment.
I didn't feel anything close to sanity at day 10. It takes as long as it takes, it's not easy and the addicted side of you is going to start screaming for a drink at every opportunity - especially now that you are feeling a bit better. Racing thoughts, negative memories, fear, resentments. . .all that. It doesn't matter - all this will settle down. Every uncomfortable thought and emotion will pass.
Stay the course. Repeat to yourself, "I don't drink." The thoughts are going to come, don't fight with them, just say - "Uh huh. That's not going to happen. I don't drink." Play that tape all the way through to how you would feel afterwards - the shame, regret, illness, disappointment.
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Originally Posted by biminiblue
What do you mean, "Keep going?" Well, you're probably at the meeting by now...
I didn't feel anything close to sanity at day 10. It takes as long as it takes, it's not easy and the addicted side of you is going to start screaming for a drink at every opportunity - especially now that you are feeling a bit better. Racing thoughts, negative memories, fear, resentments. . .all that. It doesn't matter - all this will settle down. Every uncomfortable thought and emotion will pass.
Stay the course. Repeat to yourself, "I don't drink." The thoughts are going to come, don't fight with them, just say - "Uh huh. That's not going to happen. I don't drink." Play that tape all the way through to how you would feel afterwards - the shame, regret, illness, disappointment.
I didn't feel anything close to sanity at day 10. It takes as long as it takes, it's not easy and the addicted side of you is going to start screaming for a drink at every opportunity - especially now that you are feeling a bit better. Racing thoughts, negative memories, fear, resentments. . .all that. It doesn't matter - all this will settle down. Every uncomfortable thought and emotion will pass.
Stay the course. Repeat to yourself, "I don't drink." The thoughts are going to come, don't fight with them, just say - "Uh huh. That's not going to happen. I don't drink." Play that tape all the way through to how you would feel afterwards - the shame, regret, illness, disappointment.
I get really nervous and after the meetings the blur of noise is overwhelming. I pray no-one will talk to me. They always seem to have really bright lights to. I spend a lot of time wishing I could turn them off. But I always feel happy and craving free after. I was happy in a couple of them. Going to meetings every day, talking to this temp sponsor and coming here are keeping me sober without me having to think about what to do.
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Morning All, Morning CT, got a solid 6 hours sleep last night and feel positive this morning. Have offered up a prayer that we all stay off the vodka today to the universe or whatever is out there. Seems to be working because day 11 is here!
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