jacksdaughter

So I'm so proud day one went well. I feel a little better already but I do know I have to do this day by day. Things at home are still a little tense after the drunk argument which I hope to never have happen again. First I can't remember what was said which I am ashamed of and have to say it is not the first time this has happened. But I am determined to make it the last. I have spent too much of my life short changing myself feeling like my feelings don't count. Tired of making everyone else happy and taking care of them. Tired of crying and being hurt. I am hoping without the drinking I will be able to make better choices and take better care of myself. So on to day two.. hope everyone has a good one.

Done4today

Great job on day 1 JD!! You should be proud of it. Be grateful for your accomplishments and the life you have now because of them. Have a wonderful day JD.

mejorando

Nice work on Day 1! I was in the same exact position as you were in Day 2, so thanks for reaching out as well-I´m inspired to begin my day reading this.

jacksdaughter

Thank you... I already feel like my head is clearing. My husband thinks it's that I don't trust him. While running this morning with my clearer head I figured out it's not about trust it's about fear. I have lost so much in the past two years that I am just unsure that I can take another loss. So keep the better thoughts coming and prayer for the best.

Off to work, will check in again later.

Croutie

Congrats for getting through day one! Be proud of yourself and keep that positive attitude! You can do this ODAAT.
BEST,
Croutie

SoberInStAlbans

Great job JD! I love the user name. Our parents play into who we are so much. Much love from WV!

Mizzuno

Good work on this resolve. It takes a lot to stand up and to take care of ourselves in the ways that truly matter. Take care of you first so that you are able to give to others. Your feelings matter and your life matters. Onward and upward!

FreedomCA

Congrats! Day 1 is the most difficult day!

CreativeThinker

MissOverIt

Great post and great job!

Dee74

Keep moving forward Jacksdaughter!

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Anna

Congratulations on Day 2! Good for you!

Your comment is very relevant to me. Learning to say 'No' was one of the most important things in my early recovery. I shut myself off from my own needs and feelings in an attempt to be there for everyone else. And, not surprisingly, that failed miserably.