Arghhh!!!
Arghhh!!!
Alright guys. I need you to help me drown out my codie voice (I have a ton of blogs if you are interested in the back story. Be warned, it's a long one!). I've started putting my ducks in a row to divorce my AH, including starting to contact lawyers. Wouldn't you know, he didn't drink at all last night. Now my codie voice is whispering in my ear "See? He can control it....". I know one good night isn't worth the month of bad/so-so nights and I've got to remember that. Please help before I do something stupid! I can't spend the next thirty years the way I've spent the last eight.
What "stupid" thing are you thinking of doing? All you are doing right now is contacting lawyers, right? You're at the information-gathering stage, and you are making (very wise) preparations so you can leave when you're ready. None of those things commits you to ANYTHING.
I'd STRONGLY recommend that you continue with your process. Watch what happens in the meantime. I think it will become pretty clear that nothing has changed (except for the worse) in the five years you've been on this forum.
I'd STRONGLY recommend that you continue with your process. Watch what happens in the meantime. I think it will become pretty clear that nothing has changed (except for the worse) in the five years you've been on this forum.
File. It will take months for the divorce to go through. Plenty of time to change your mind if, after careful consideration, that's what you really want. My bet is it will be so peaceful you won't want to back out by then.
Fortunately (or not depending on your view), you have to be legally separated for one year in my state. I'm hoping that one year will be the time he uses to prove me right or wrong. I suspect he will prove me right.
you could also give him credit for not drinking while sleeping.
it's sad when our concept of a "good" night is the fact that THEY did not ingest ANY alcohol.
One night of sobriety is not a very high bar...... i also wouldn't call a cessation in alcohol consumption for a few hours SOBRIETY.....
it's sad when our concept of a "good" night is the fact that THEY did not ingest ANY alcohol.
One night of sobriety is not a very high bar...... i also wouldn't call a cessation in alcohol consumption for a few hours SOBRIETY.....
AXH once actually tried to use a similar thing to get credit. "Remember, TU? I've had days where I don't drink. There were those 3 days last month when I didn't even consider drinking." "You mean the 3 days you were so sick you couldn't even keep broth down?"
So, he didn't have a drink for one night - possibly a couple by now. It doesn't mean much, and it sounds like you understand that, DRC, it's just that last thread of hope that is hanging. AXH actually went to in-patient rehab right before I filed for divorce and THAT didn't mean much for him. (Even though it had me wondering whether or not I should take him back, heart in hands, when he came back.) He stopped drinking a few days before he got ready to check in and said he'd 'be the first sober person to show up' for rehab. He came back and said it was always the hard stuff, never the beer.
It's not really just the not drinking that's the key factor, it's the underlying beliefs and commitment to change. And unfortunately, it takes longer than just a few days for that to become clear. Hang in there.
So, he didn't have a drink for one night - possibly a couple by now. It doesn't mean much, and it sounds like you understand that, DRC, it's just that last thread of hope that is hanging. AXH actually went to in-patient rehab right before I filed for divorce and THAT didn't mean much for him. (Even though it had me wondering whether or not I should take him back, heart in hands, when he came back.) He stopped drinking a few days before he got ready to check in and said he'd 'be the first sober person to show up' for rehab. He came back and said it was always the hard stuff, never the beer.
It's not really just the not drinking that's the key factor, it's the underlying beliefs and commitment to change. And unfortunately, it takes longer than just a few days for that to become clear. Hang in there.
Well, you nailed that on the head. Thank goodness I ignored his ONE "good day". Between Friday, Saturday, and yesterday, he drank 9 1/2 bottles of wine and 58 oz of beer. He's making my decision easier and easier.
Right now I'm doing it more to remind myself not to back down more than to monitor him. Plus, if the lawyer needs additional info, I'll have it ready.
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