2muchpain

Been away from AA for around a year. Things haven't been going well lately. Not as bad as it used to be, but drinking is drinking and eventually it will take it's toll. Can't remember the last time I had terrible withdrawals like the shakes or hallucinations. The worst I've dealt with is just being a little out of it the next day. But my attitude is terrible and have been noticing a lot of digestive problems lately. Been going to the gym a lot and doing a lot of cardio to sweat it out but that will only do so much.
Anyway, back to the reason for this thread. It dawned on me that I have absolutely no spiritual connection anymore. I don't feel like I have that spiritual support like I used to. Even with all the problems I had in those meetings; it did help me to feel like there was some power that had my back when things got bad. Even when feeling alone, I felt there was something that was helping to guide me in the right direction. Something that would give me the strength to fight.
I moved recently, so maybe a new meeting with different people might help. John

Anna

That sounds like a good plan you have in mind. I hope you connect with someone at a meeting.

I had no spiritual connection either when I stopped drinking, nothing at all. The book that changed everything for me:

Zukav, Gary The Seat of the Soul

And, a few other great reads:

Myss, Carolyn The Anatomy of the Spirit
Hay, Louise You Can Heal Your Life
Singer, Michael The Untethered Soul

2muchpain

Thanks Anna. Actually, I've been trying a good book to read for a while. I'll look into your suggestions. John

least

(((John))) Another good book to read is Being Peace by Thich Nhat Hanh. It's also easy to read and the chapters are short. It changed my attitude.

Hevyn

John - I think you're wise to check out a meeting in your new town. I'm glad you are self-aware enough to assess what's going on and take action.

biminiblue

I know when I was drinking it wasn't possible to get in touch with the good side. I knew it was there, but it was blocked.

Wrong spirit. It was much more the dark side. I felt like I was in a swamp. Stopping drinking was like walking on water almost...being released from that sucking mud.

2muchpain

Yeah, I'm well aware of what my situation is. But like many people know, even after having long periods of sobriety, then drinking again; it's easy to forget the benefits of not drinking. I'm tired of feeling so needy. I need love, I need attention, I need people that care, I need people that understand me, I need people that will be there no matter what, I need people that love me so much that they will tell me I'm full of bull##it and set me straight and stick with me when I fight them.
But what I do have is me and my ability to fight the odds to succeed when people said I couldn't. Despite these successes, I know alcoholism is a different foe and requires a lot support.

PhoenixJ

Keep persisting.

Dee74

You can never lose if you never give in John

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