Merlot (my ex)
LoveHateMerlot
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Join Date: Mar 2017
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Merlot (my ex)
Good morning, beautiful souls! Happy St. Patrick's Day! It's Day 2 for me. I woke up at 7:00 am and I don't have a hangover :-)
I'm making alcohol a person in my head now, alcohol is an abusive ex that keeps coming back around, lingering in and out of my life. Not today abusive ex, just keep on walking out of my life. I will not answer to you, I will not let you control me any more, or let you back in. We don't belong together. You are toxic for me and I'm not myself when I'm with you. If I don't kick you out of my life right now, you will end up killing me. You made me think I was a terrible human being, well I'm not, I'm just a terrible human being when I'm with you. This isn't love. Good bye.
I'm thankful for all of you who post about your personal experiences, they remind me that I am not the only one with this ongoing battle. After joining SR yesterday, it makes me even more angry at alcohol that it's able to destroy so many of our lives.
I'm making alcohol a person in my head now, alcohol is an abusive ex that keeps coming back around, lingering in and out of my life. Not today abusive ex, just keep on walking out of my life. I will not answer to you, I will not let you control me any more, or let you back in. We don't belong together. You are toxic for me and I'm not myself when I'm with you. If I don't kick you out of my life right now, you will end up killing me. You made me think I was a terrible human being, well I'm not, I'm just a terrible human being when I'm with you. This isn't love. Good bye.
I'm thankful for all of you who post about your personal experiences, they remind me that I am not the only one with this ongoing battle. After joining SR yesterday, it makes me even more angry at alcohol that it's able to destroy so many of our lives.
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Hi Love/Hate! Glad you are with us. I really like your analogy! I just view alcohol as pure poison because that is what it is....it will kill me and I have grown to hate it. Happy St. Pattys Day!
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Welcome to SR! 
I wrote a break up letter to alcohol too. I really ripped it a new one and it felt good. It kind of helped with the self-forgiveness too, a tiny little bit.
Good job on day 2, I agree waking up hang-over free is a wonderful feeling!
I wrote a break up letter to alcohol too. I really ripped it a new one and it felt good. It kind of helped with the self-forgiveness too, a tiny little bit.
Good job on day 2, I agree waking up hang-over free is a wonderful feeling!
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Welcome to recovery. You know that was a very insightful thing to say about the way you feel about alcohol and I thank you for your words.
I myself have been sober for a month and 4 day's now and coming hear and reading the forum's of people like yourself gives me so much strength to be able to deal with the cravings I have.
Sobriety is so great and I feel like a better person already. The fight is long and hard but totally worth it.
I myself have been sober for a month and 4 day's now and coming hear and reading the forum's of people like yourself gives me so much strength to be able to deal with the cravings I have.
Sobriety is so great and I feel like a better person already. The fight is long and hard but totally worth it.
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Hi LoveHateMerlot,
Well done on getting a couple of day up and enjoying a hangover free AM on St Patties (of all the days!)
Great analogy & so true! I have been struggling with my pro-booze voice last few days but this puts it in perspective, thanks for posting & stick about
Well done on getting a couple of day up and enjoying a hangover free AM on St Patties (of all the days!)
Great analogy & so true! I have been struggling with my pro-booze voice last few days but this puts it in perspective, thanks for posting & stick about
LoveHateMerlot
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Join Date: Mar 2017
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Absolutely healthychoices .... and my pro-booze voice is still loud and clear in my head, but I'm reminding myself every second how unhealthy my relationship is with the booze. I've been reading everyone's posts nonstop. I'm absolutely going to stay sober tonight, I'm taking this one night at a time. Glad to hear you are sharing a sober Friday night with me xoxoxo....looking forward to a feel good morning! Let's kick this...
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