Horn95

Hey there SR folks. So I had been posting here for a while. Detoxed from alcohol (equivalent of 3 bottles of wine a day) late December, and put together a couple of weeks clean.

Since then I have had fits and starts. This weekend was not good. And my sleep pattern is slipping back to where it was in December, principally because my anxiety is back with a vengeance. Not good. The vets on this board know this pattern all too well.

I have resolved, I simply do not have the DNA to do this half way. So I am back at a new Day One. I am going to join the March group, and get a plan. I should have done the latter a long time ago.

It has been 17 hours since I had a drink. No withdrawal-- I think. I worked out pretty hard this morning (I have gotten back into that successfully, which has mitigated the damage I think). I have had some nausea, but I am not sure that is not due to bad anxiety.

In any event, I am literally taking it hour by hour. Next time I want a drink, I'm posting here.

wildflower70

I am back on Day 1 also....I am struggling too, but looking forward to feeling clear headed again, and finding a new plan!! Good luck, and never give up!!

Horn95

Thanks Wildflower! Let's just take it a day at a time! We can do this!

january161992

hello horn and wild

heres a chip for ya

i keep mine on my key ring always!

Horn95

Thanks January! Where did you get that chip?!

Anna

Horn, you can do this and it sounds like you're ready to do the hard stuff.

Keep posting and let us know how you're doing. Don't hesitate to contact a doctor if you are concerned.

BabyBlues2

I too am on a new Day 1. I can't seem to make it passed 70 hours...or 48 or sometimes 36...It's been about 7 hours since my last drink. Feeling like garbage right now.

Hevyn

Proud of you, Horn. I couldn't do it halfway either - and heaven knows I tried (with disastrous results). We're with you - we know you can do this.

tiffanyeagle

i'm into my second month and I have a plan this time that I'm sticking too on a daily basis. (i am in aa, got a sponsor, a home group, a big book group, and my sponsor wants to take me through the steps!)
I got sober on 2/5 this year and plan to live a life of recovery. I will die if I don't. Life is miracle , a gift, think about it, so let's live it and know what the f we are doing for once. i can't remember much from the last two years except the horrible things that happened during my drunks and whatever happened during my black outs that i was able to piece together. i can't go on like that.
stay stay with me!
tiff.

PurpleKnight

you can do this Horn!!

Dee74

Have you got a plan this time, Horn?

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Jillwink

Horn, as a fellow Nobender, I've been wondering about you. We care about you, and want you Sober! Please make the commitment to just not drink ever.

Julia8

We understand and are all here for you!