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In pieces here
Hi everyone. Really struggling here. Basically went on a total bender yesterday and woke up in a hotel miles from home. I'm such an idiot. Don't feel like I'll ever get it together. I can honestly say if I had a gun right now I'd shoot myself.
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Let's not go there nourthernsoul. Please seek help if you are feeling suicidal. I do understand those emotions well, I felt them many times, but I am very, very glad I didn't do anything about them at the time. I am happy to be here in this world. People need me, I want to live and in time, with some sobriety, you will too. You need to get clean right now.
Let's not get ahead of ourselves and think of the weeks and months to come, right now you need to get up and get yourself together. Get out of that hotel, get home. Take a shower. Drink some juice and some water. Do ONE positive thing today. Clean up a mess that has been sitting around, take out the trash, do a load of laundry, take a walk, anything, just one thing so you can go to bed tonight feeling like you accomplished something.
Do not lose hope. You CAN do this. You can. You are going to feel miserable for a few days, but it is going to start fading. The first thing to make that happen is to not drink anymore.
Let's not get ahead of ourselves and think of the weeks and months to come, right now you need to get up and get yourself together. Get out of that hotel, get home. Take a shower. Drink some juice and some water. Do ONE positive thing today. Clean up a mess that has been sitting around, take out the trash, do a load of laundry, take a walk, anything, just one thing so you can go to bed tonight feeling like you accomplished something.
Do not lose hope. You CAN do this. You can. You are going to feel miserable for a few days, but it is going to start fading. The first thing to make that happen is to not drink anymore.
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Alcohol and drugs don't let us think clearly so sober up, get back home and stick around SR. Try some ideas that have helped others around here. This can be your last bender and the start of an amazing life.
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are you still around northernsoul? How are you doing?
I remember that sense of doom and gloom very well, but don;t give into it...there is lasting recovery
You already know how to get sober...you just have to work out how to stay sober now. There's a ton of good ideas and support here
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I remember that sense of doom and gloom very well, but don;t give into it...there is lasting recovery
You already know how to get sober...you just have to work out how to stay sober now. There's a ton of good ideas and support here
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Originally Posted by Aquafina 
Oh no. Im bad. scared. drunk with a rifle. 2mg down waiting.
I called I should eat something. It never ends!
I called I should eat something. It never ends!
.are you commenting on something else, or are you telling us you're drunk with a rifle Aquafina - I'm not sure?
The more clear you can be the more we can help?
If you need help please call 911, or look through some of the links here for support and crisis numbers
http://www.soberrecovery.com/forums/...ease-read.html
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nourthernsoul, we are all here for you. Please keep posting for support as you get through this day.
Same goes to you too Aquafina.
We are here to support you but please call someone locally if you are having serious thoughts of suicide.
Same goes to you too Aquafina.
We are here to support you but please call someone locally if you are having serious thoughts of suicide.
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I physically can't drink, the thought of it makes me feel sick. Can't remember a thing from yesterday and hate feeling like this. Thankfully I've got a days holiday in at work tomorrow. Going to ring the AA helpline now. Thanks so much for your replies it's really appreciated.
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You do it the same way we all started northern soul - day by day
There's no end to support and encouragement here - you ca do this
I'm really glad you posted and to hear you're home and safe
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There's no end to support and encouragement here - you ca do this
I'm really glad you posted and to hear you're home and safe
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Thanks for letting us know you are home.
One day at a time, you can rebuild things and never have to go through something like this again. Early days can be tough (I'm just coming out of the very early days myself after a relapse), but there is a much better life waiting.
One day at a time, you can rebuild things and never have to go through something like this again. Early days can be tough (I'm just coming out of the very early days myself after a relapse), but there is a much better life waiting.
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