Hallucinations apon wakening.
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Hallucinations apon wakening.
I'm in a gap where the terror isnt crushing. I cant drink water.
Some electric colors, A spinning playground equipment on my bed. Its truly hypnotic. Enjoyable.
Your only suffering if you tell someone. This is my Vietnam.
I dont think I'll ever get the pills again. Troubling to get me to take them. They are sugar pills. Exhastion is an understatement. Battlefield.
The intent will lessen as I withdraw. But I honestly miss me.
Some electric colors, A spinning playground equipment on my bed. Its truly hypnotic. Enjoyable.
Your only suffering if you tell someone. This is my Vietnam.
I dont think I'll ever get the pills again. Troubling to get me to take them. They are sugar pills. Exhastion is an understatement. Battlefield.
The intent will lessen as I withdraw. But I honestly miss me.
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I was prescribed 15mg of clonazepam yesterday. I haven't taken any for fear of legitimate ideation and unwillingness to stop. Future withdrawls, I've been here before.
I have to drive to pick up my son in 2 hours. I'm scared to even think about that.
Any action, sounds, make it worse. Positive feedback loop.
I have no idea where i going with this.
I have to drive to pick up my son in 2 hours. I'm scared to even think about that.
Any action, sounds, make it worse. Positive feedback loop.
I have no idea where i going with this.
I definitely would not drive, nor drive with your son. That isn't safe for either of you, or anyone else on the road. Withdrawal is a serious matter, and there is plenty of help available. Please seek some!
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I caved in and took 2 mgs. Such a relief closing my eyes and seeing nearly blackness. Sensitivity issues have lessened and walkin around my room is so much easier. Pounding heart... gone!
Im drinking water.
Im drinking water.
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I'm not in danger. Just trying to take the min amount of the pills and avoiding alcohol. Ive done this so many times... daily,2,3,4,5,9,12 days at a time. I had almost 3yrs clean starting in 2009. Sobriety feels impossible but its so nice to tell someone.
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