Volshen

I was on day 4 until today. I bought a bunch of beer earlier but after drinking 1 and a half cans ... I pictured myself waking up later after drinking the entire box hating myself and feeling sick .. so I threw it out.

But rewind to when I bought the beer ... playing the tape wasn't working ... I knew it was dumb when I went to get it .. I'm fortunate I threw it out but I'm not always that lucky ... I rarely throw it out .. most of the time I drink it.

Dee74

Hi volshen - glad you stopped yourself

if playing the tape doesn't always work for you, what about incorporating some other tools into your recovery plan?

Urgesurfing, HALT, posting here first, other things from this link
http://www.soberrecovery.com/forums/...-cravings.html

or real life support like AA or some other recovery group?
http://www.soberrecovery.com/forums/...formation.html

There are some other really good ideas for recovery plans here too:
http://www.soberrecovery.com/forums/...ery-plans.html

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Mattq2

Good for you volshen. Maybe not a perfect outcome but to me you are learning and making progress. Just keep moving forward my friend.

Anna

Hi Volshen

I'm glad you stopped drinking when you did. My mind would become so fixated on going to buy alcohol that I would only half listen to the tape. As, Dee said, I would have to add other things in order to make it work. I found that changing my routine, especially my evening routine really helped. I'm glad you're back.

Hevyn

Good that you were able to catch yourself & stop. Once I started I never could - I was always in danger after the first one. It was a relief to be free of it & never gamble anymore. I'm glad you posted, Volshen.

Algorithm

By playing the tape defensively, you are saying that you won't drink only if bad things would happen, and essentially asking your addiction "What if I went ahead and drank? What would happen?"

Of course, your addiction (and yes, it speaks to you in words and images) will probably minimize the likelihood of bad outcomes, and suggest that bad things might not happen if you drank, since they don't always happen.

Better to make up your mind once, ahead of time, and to fall back on that decision instead of asking your addiction "what if?"

january161992

hi volshen

glad youre back

real life and death stuff here

eggcup25

So pleased you came and posted on here.

Such great support on SR.

Hope you are OK and feel like you can move on again positively.

One day at a time...