Oh the places you'll go (or won't go)!
Member
Thread Starter
Join Date: Oct 2014
Location: Colorado
Posts: 8
Oh the places you'll go (or won't go)!
I ran across this book from Dr. Seuss, while cleaning out my basement and it is so relevant. I know it's been posted here before but definitely worth reading again.
That phrase has so many meanings. Literally the places you can go when sober. The store at night? Yes I can, because I wont get a DUI just picking up some ice cream. Not going to places you know will cause a slip. All the bad places we went with our words, actions or simply did not go to an important event. Not going to that place and saying every angry thing you feel, while going through this process. It feels good after you dont go there, but its draining.
What a ride these 42 days have been. I've been lurking around SR for a year or so. Been feeling pretty good and stronger this time. However, when stressors come up, like the mix of: x husband, a step mom and my daughter. I just want to retreat into my hole. I've done the usual: self deprecation, shame and shear terror of my lack of will power and the person I became. This morning I had a situation with the above mentioned and while I instinctively thought I need a drink (or to be real ...10), I quickly got annoyed with my brain, as I played out the next hour, night, the next day and then what? weeks, months of the same old crap. No thanks! I'm not going to that place. I'm going to go finish cleaning my basement.
Its amazing how much I'm getting done. Taxes are even complete. Right now .... I feel powerful.
That phrase has so many meanings. Literally the places you can go when sober. The store at night? Yes I can, because I wont get a DUI just picking up some ice cream. Not going to places you know will cause a slip. All the bad places we went with our words, actions or simply did not go to an important event. Not going to that place and saying every angry thing you feel, while going through this process. It feels good after you dont go there, but its draining.
What a ride these 42 days have been. I've been lurking around SR for a year or so. Been feeling pretty good and stronger this time. However, when stressors come up, like the mix of: x husband, a step mom and my daughter. I just want to retreat into my hole. I've done the usual: self deprecation, shame and shear terror of my lack of will power and the person I became. This morning I had a situation with the above mentioned and while I instinctively thought I need a drink (or to be real ...10), I quickly got annoyed with my brain, as I played out the next hour, night, the next day and then what? weeks, months of the same old crap. No thanks! I'm not going to that place. I'm going to go finish cleaning my basement.
Its amazing how much I'm getting done. Taxes are even complete. Right now .... I feel powerful.
Currently Active Users Viewing this Thread: 1 (0 members and 1 guests)
