Spacey98

I am a disabled person with both physical and mental illness. I have been sober for about four months now. I was on heroine and morphine prior to taking 95 milligrams of methadone combined with Valium. I am a very sensitive person. My mind never rests. I have fears and anxiety. I wouldn't say my fears are irrational because of abuse that I have been through in the past. I have prioritized my fears, first fear being that I will not find my higher power, second I will relapse and die, third I will lose respect from my loved ones and forth black mail.

Dee74

Welcome Spacey
I moved your post to our main Newcomers forum for more response.

You'll find this a very caring and supportive community,

I'm disabled too - cerebral palsy - and this site is my safe place

I had a lot of fears and forebodings when I quit.
I think that's very common but really, everything has turned out great.

Read around, find what other people are doing and what appeals to you. I'm g;lad you found us.

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Spacey98

Thank you Dee74

mecanix

Hey Spacey ,

Welcome ,

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Spacey98

Taking a sane and sober approach on life means everything to me

AdelineRose

I have mental health issues also, and I was not able to get sober and create a strong lasting recovery until I was as mentally stable as I could be. I am bipolar and even though it was hard to find the right combination of medicines, working with a psychiatrist and a substance abuse counselor changed my life. I mention this just because maybe contacting your doctor or starting weekly counseling sessions might help. I had thught my medicines were the right match, but in the end they weren't. Just something I wanted to throw out there.

I also keep a journal where I write a list of my priorities, a list of the pros and cons to using, and different quotes and some notes for which bible verses I have found inspiring.

Great job on 4 months sober! Never stop moving forward and working on yourself and your recovery will continue to get stronger and stronger and stronger!

MsCooterBrown

Dee...an inspiration to all. Also...prayers to all. This is my safe place as well.

january161992

i call that a healthy fear

i have been shown by the actions of others over and over that this is a serious and fatal disease

thats why i always ...

go to a meeting (almost) everyday
ask God for help
be of service to others


welcome Spacey

great job on ~4 months !!!