Almost had a drink.
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Almost had a drink.
Day 11 yesterday and drove past a pub I used to drink in, av started trying to convince me that I could have 4 or 5 pints and that would be it. Don't think I have ever had that few.
Got on here yesterday afternoon and the cravings passed.
This morning woke up and spent the whole day thinking of drinking tonight. The desire to drink and the false notion that I could moderate were so powerful that I didn't even think of the comedown I had last week after my last binge. I even called a friend to have a beer. I knew it was wrong but I suppose I was looking for an excuse and that by meeting an old friend I could control it as opposed to when I drink on my own or with others similar to me. Luckily he said no. After a cup of tea and a bag of cadburys mini eggs the desire to drink was gone. I am so relived to be sitting here sober knowing I will wake up sober. I shudder to think what state I might be in had my friend said he wanted to meet.
I hope this encourages others not to give up. The desire to drink was the strongest I have ever had, never had it that bad in the 10 weeks I managed before Christmas.
So anyone tempted just hold out, at 19.30 I was convinced I was going to drink and by 20.30 I was so much calmer and the desire had gone and I know I couldn't have moderated and would have got wasted.
Feel really tired now, today has drained me.
Good luck everyone, keep fighting it.
Got on here yesterday afternoon and the cravings passed.
This morning woke up and spent the whole day thinking of drinking tonight. The desire to drink and the false notion that I could moderate were so powerful that I didn't even think of the comedown I had last week after my last binge. I even called a friend to have a beer. I knew it was wrong but I suppose I was looking for an excuse and that by meeting an old friend I could control it as opposed to when I drink on my own or with others similar to me. Luckily he said no. After a cup of tea and a bag of cadburys mini eggs the desire to drink was gone. I am so relived to be sitting here sober knowing I will wake up sober. I shudder to think what state I might be in had my friend said he wanted to meet.
I hope this encourages others not to give up. The desire to drink was the strongest I have ever had, never had it that bad in the 10 weeks I managed before Christmas.
So anyone tempted just hold out, at 19.30 I was convinced I was going to drink and by 20.30 I was so much calmer and the desire had gone and I know I couldn't have moderated and would have got wasted.
Feel really tired now, today has drained me.
Good luck everyone, keep fighting it.
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My heart was in my throat reading your post, Quit. I had a day like that myself on Monday, I think. It was awful, and exhausting.
GOOD WORK...and encouraging to us all.
Urge surfing is high on my list. It really does work.
GOOD WORK...and encouraging to us all.
Urge surfing is high on my list. It really does work.
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I'm really glad you got through Quit.
Practice urge surfing even when there';s no urge to surf...you can still be mindful of thinsg you're feeling.
It's best to have gone through it a few times without pressure rather than try and crack it open the first time trying to deal with a craving.
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Practice urge surfing even when there';s no urge to surf...you can still be mindful of thinsg you're feeling.
It's best to have gone through it a few times without pressure rather than try and crack it open the first time trying to deal with a craving.
D
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