Ready2Bmeagain

Hello all. Let me reintroduce myself. I have been hanging out on SR for nearly the last 5 years during which time I have quit and started drinking again a number of times. I have had a very dysfunctional relationship with alcohol for more than 35 years. I've been called a functional alcoholic by others forever, but the way I see it is that I am like most everyone else who has a problem with drinking. I can't just have one drink and call it a night, once I start, I drink until I am numb and drunk and often times passed out. Over the last year I have had a couple of black out drunks where the outcome was not good at all and the things I did while blacked out have caused a complete loss of respect from people who I value their friendship greatly. I woke up today for my 30th day sober and I have a whole new motivation to stay sober this time around. I am not much of a poster, but I will stick around and participate and most importantly gain wisdom and motivation and understanding from the rest of you here that are new to sobriety like me, or working to finding your own path to recovery like it has taken me the last 5 years to do.

Thanks for listening!

Hevyn

30 days - something to be so proud of, Ready2BMeagain.

That was the biggest thing for me - admitting there could never be just one drink. I wasted so many years trying different things to control it. Willpower stops working the minute the first drink hits us & all our good intentions fly away. No more!

PhoenixJ

A new awareness. Embrace it. Good for you. Prayers.

least

Congrats on the first of many sober months! Keep going, it gets better.

Mattq2

Good for you ready, hope you post some I think it's very helpful for all. Good luck my friend

Dee74

Congrats on 30 days Ready

Noone expects anything of anyone when they post - if you'd like to post more please do

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