jimmyhow

I'm really sick of this now. I feel totally trapped in this cycle of bingeing. My behaviour is getting worse every time and I'm miserable. I think I'm probably depressed and the booze is making me crazy.

FieldReport

I'm totally with you jimmy; but I see a positive with you just being here and posting that statement. I'm new to this forum but I feel it's already helping me. While I have not been able to stop yet, at least I'm on here now and not drinking as I was last Saturday morning. Who the hell wakes up at 6 AM and pours a drink? I wish I could give you more words of encouragement, but I don't think I have that right. Yet.

Anna

Jimmy, I'm glad you're back. Do you have a plan in place for how you plan to stop drinking and to recover? There are lots of idea here, so I hope you take a look around and make a plan to do this.

doggonecarl

Did you get any further into AA than cracking the Big Book? Maybe a sponsor and the steps will get you the sobriety you seek.

Cause nothing changes if nothing changes.

D122y

Booze is an addictive drug, we got addicted.

It will take time to get through the physical and mental damage.

When we stop drinking we have to fill that time w positives. Otherwise we r unhappy and risk relapse more.

AA, SR, gym, hiking, walking, reading are all ways to fill the time. Searching for what i love is also filling the time.

We are uncomfortable when we crave. Our emotions want comfort. Our analytical mind knows the repercussions.

After a long long while it gets better. I was going insane at 90 days clean. My mind was still very obsessive at 1 year.

Now at 21 months, i still crave, but the norm now is to not drink.....ever.

I also get natural euphoria from activities etc. It took a long long time for my brain to get to this stage of healing. I am still healing.

It gets better by the moment.

Stay clean.

Thanks.

hellrzr

Nothing will change if you don't take any action. Get to an AA meeting if you really want to stop and change your life.

Dee74

Some good advice here Jimmy.

what changes can you make - what are you prepared to do in terms of support, in terms of lifestyle, and in changing your ways of dealing with problems?

D

january161992

hi jimmy

im heading out to my daily aa meeting in a few minutes

like a big sober social club

least

Maybe using this site more might help you stay sober. Post before you drink, not after.

thomas11

You can stop digging any time Jimmy, no need for that hole to go any deeper. You'll like your life better too, I would almost guarantee it.