Sassygrace

I've been drinking a six pack a day since Saturday.

I've quit before. Before Saturday my last drink was in November. I can't explain it, but I was feeling BAD. I just couldn't stand my memories and I caved.

Another binge.

I'm like a bulimic only with alcohol. Please dont scare me.

Just tell me that I'll be ok if I don't drink tomorrow.

Please just let me feel OK

doggonecarl

I don't know if you will feel OK one day sober. But every day you are sober you will feel better. I think if you stop drinking you can start doing the things you need to do to be OK. Like get therapy for the trauma and bad feelings.

ABetterWay1

I agree with doggonecarl. You'll have to get through some crappy times at first to be OK, but you will reach a point at which you are much better off. You'll be better than OK.

Take it a day at a time, and you'll eventually string together lots of days, weeks, and months.

ABW1

manama

SassyGrace, you have guts ! My thoughts run like trains on a toy track. Every time I pass the station it occurs to me that I can have a drink.

Sometimes it helps to tell myself that this thought needs to make another lap. And if I do that long enough some interruption sets me free for a while. Just let that train leave the station, you stay on the platform in your peace. Best to you.

Anna

Hi Sassygrace, I hope you feel better tomorrow. I know how scary it is to be in the midst of a binge and afraid to stop or not stop.

You can learn ways to deal with the bad memories. It's a problem for me, too and you can learn techniques to help stop the memories and to let them go, before they take over your mind.

You can do this!

Sassygrace

Thank you all very much. Everyone hates me. The more I get criticised the more self destructive i get.

Delilah1

Hi SassyGrace,

Things really do get better one day at a time. Focus on today and what you can do to stay sober right now, keep doing that and the days will start to add up.

There are lots of different approaches to recovery, spend some time reading on here, and you can put together a plan that works for you.

You have a whole community if people on SR who care about you, and who know you can do this.

❤️Delilah

Dee74

Hi sassy - I found the best way to get out the cycle of criticism and self disgust was to get sober and stay that way.

Do whatever you have to do to make this a day one.

Go to a meeting, or sit on SR all day, or see your Dr, check out about addiction counselling or even inpatient or outpatient rehab.

Maybe even a combination of things...whatever it takes.

Get that day one. Even at my worst I could commit to one day sober.

It really is the start to everything.

saoutchik

Some good advice here SassyGrace.

I feel sure that everyone doesn't hate you and l really hope you don't hate yourself

Good luck