The unreasonableness of addiction!
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The unreasonableness of addiction!
It will be one week tomorrow I am pleased to say. But today has been a bit low - the weather hear it really awfully gloomy at the moment. Went to see La La Land this afternoon and without giving anything away it is a bit downbeat..
Got home and suddenly felt miserable because 'I can't have a drink'.
I know it is irrational and I won't give into any desire to drink - and I will feel better in the morning I am sure, but sometimes the addiction feels so damned unfair!
Got home and suddenly felt miserable because 'I can't have a drink'.
I know it is irrational and I won't give into any desire to drink - and I will feel better in the morning I am sure, but sometimes the addiction feels so damned unfair!
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"Got home and suddenly felt miserable because 'I can't have a drink'. "
i had moments like that early on. it dawned on me it was a lie- i could have a drink. i could drink any time i wanted.
but not without negative consequences. it would incease any misery i thought alcohol would stop- might stop the feelings for a bit,but id feel even worse eventually
lots of past experiences toremind me.
one week is an eternity, so good on ya!
good to see ya back,mentium.i was missin your avatar!
i had moments like that early on. it dawned on me it was a lie- i could have a drink. i could drink any time i wanted.
but not without negative consequences. it would incease any misery i thought alcohol would stop- might stop the feelings for a bit,but id feel even worse eventually
lots of past experiences toremind me.
one week is an eternity, so good on ya!
good to see ya back,mentium.i was missin your avatar!
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Those moments pass tho...and eventually, working hard to be happy sober, I found I got to a place where I preferred being sober.
Being a non drinker really feels like a gift to me now rather than a deprivation.
Being a non drinker really feels like a gift to me now rather than a deprivation.
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Originally Posted by Mentium 
It will be one week tomorrow I am pleased to say. But today has been a bit low - the weather hear it really awfully gloomy at the moment. Went to see La La Land this afternoon and without giving anything away it is a bit downbeat..
Got home and suddenly felt miserable because 'I can't have a drink'.
I know it is irrational and I won't give into any desire to drink - and I will feel better in the morning I am sure, but sometimes the addiction feels so damned unfair!
Got home and suddenly felt miserable because 'I can't have a drink'.
I know it is irrational and I won't give into any desire to drink - and I will feel better in the morning I am sure, but sometimes the addiction feels so damned unfair!
Stay strong! You know the cravings will subside a bit eventually.
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Change "can't have a drink" to "I am a counter-culture super-hero & won't have a drink."
One drink & the day is lost! There are so many awesome things to do!
That's how I move through that conversation with my AV - "sure, but then I lose...yoga, reading, certain people I can talk to or hang out with, driving, the dog park, memory, safety, waking up with the dishes done..."
When I wake up & the dishes are done, the dog is ready, I'm so "on-time" to work that I can actually stop for a bagel & coffee - I am never ever sorry at the choice made.
Tonight I am up late for other reasons (a friend struggling) & I know the morning will burn. It is a cost. Expensive.
One drink & the day is lost! There are so many awesome things to do!
That's how I move through that conversation with my AV - "sure, but then I lose...yoga, reading, certain people I can talk to or hang out with, driving, the dog park, memory, safety, waking up with the dishes done..."
When I wake up & the dishes are done, the dog is ready, I'm so "on-time" to work that I can actually stop for a bagel & coffee - I am never ever sorry at the choice made.
Tonight I am up late for other reasons (a friend struggling) & I know the morning will burn. It is a cost. Expensive.
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You are right mentium , that is irrational, your addiction is trying to play tricks on you.
The solution for me was not to reason. Hell can break lose if it wants to, but no more drinking for me because I decided to.
You have too! One week is great progress, hang in there and it will get easier.
All the best
P
The solution for me was not to reason. Hell can break lose if it wants to, but no more drinking for me because I decided to.
You have too! One week is great progress, hang in there and it will get easier.
All the best
P
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