Five Months Sober and YOU can do it, too!
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Five Months Sober and YOU can do it, too!
My last drink was August 11, 2016.
It was unremarkable as far as drunk days go. I said some stupid things, embarrassed myself, but nothing really particularly bad.
I had been a member of this forum for five years, coming every few months or so for a few days, sometimes lasting a month tops, at one point taking a year hiatus.
What I'm trying to articulate is that there was absolutely no significance to August 12, 2016. It was an entirely unspecial day. I woke up sweating, mind racing, panicking, hating myself, blocking people on Facebook so they couldn't see the things I had messaged them, feeling miserable, hating life.
Yeah, that stuff was just another day. There was nothing special about feeling that hopeless and horrible. If you are on this site you probably understand.
How many more days would I wake up like this? What other parts of my life would I tear apart in this inebriated bubble? How many more prisoners would I take, calling these poor people "loved ones"? If I could tell myself "never again", just for today, then I might make it through today in one piece. I came here and did that. I joined the class of August. I decided to focus on gratitude, after a couple days. And slowly things started to get better. Slowly they are continuing to get better. If I start to feel myself slipping, I run to this place like an olympian and read, and read, and read, and post. Take the day off. Cancel plans. Do WHATEVER IT TAKES. My sobriety is the most important thing in my life and after five months I have too much hope in my heart to let the addict inside take over again.
You can do it, too!!!
In Gratitude,
B
It was unremarkable as far as drunk days go. I said some stupid things, embarrassed myself, but nothing really particularly bad.
I had been a member of this forum for five years, coming every few months or so for a few days, sometimes lasting a month tops, at one point taking a year hiatus.
What I'm trying to articulate is that there was absolutely no significance to August 12, 2016. It was an entirely unspecial day. I woke up sweating, mind racing, panicking, hating myself, blocking people on Facebook so they couldn't see the things I had messaged them, feeling miserable, hating life.
Yeah, that stuff was just another day. There was nothing special about feeling that hopeless and horrible. If you are on this site you probably understand.
How many more days would I wake up like this? What other parts of my life would I tear apart in this inebriated bubble? How many more prisoners would I take, calling these poor people "loved ones"? If I could tell myself "never again", just for today, then I might make it through today in one piece. I came here and did that. I joined the class of August. I decided to focus on gratitude, after a couple days. And slowly things started to get better. Slowly they are continuing to get better. If I start to feel myself slipping, I run to this place like an olympian and read, and read, and read, and post. Take the day off. Cancel plans. Do WHATEVER IT TAKES. My sobriety is the most important thing in my life and after five months I have too much hope in my heart to let the addict inside take over again.
You can do it, too!!!
In Gratitude,
B
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Way to go bexxed. You said something I feel is very important; sobriety must become the most important thing in one's life (at least for awhile) to achieve success. Half measures won't cut it. Congratulations.
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I am right behind you, my last drink was 80 days ago on October 24, 2016.
That day was also nothing special - just a routine day of drinking like I did on thousands and thousands of the days before.
On October 25th I stopped that rut and changed my life for the better.
That day was also nothing special - just a routine day of drinking like I did on thousands and thousands of the days before.
On October 25th I stopped that rut and changed my life for the better.
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congrats
Congrats on recovery, just remember, its one day at a time!
It was unremarkable as far as drunk days go. I said some stupid things, embarrassed myself, but nothing really particularly bad.
I had been a member of this forum for five years, coming every few months or so for a few days, sometimes lasting a month tops, at one point taking a year hiatus.
What I'm trying to articulate is that there was absolutely no significance to August 12, 2016. It was an entirely unspecial day. I woke up sweating, mind racing, panicking, hating myself, blocking people on Facebook so they couldn't see the things I had messaged them, feeling miserable, hating life.
Yeah, that stuff was just another day. There was nothing special about feeling that hopeless and horrible. If you are on this site you probably understand.
How many more days would I wake up like this? What other parts of my life would I tear apart in this inebriated bubble? How many more prisoners would I take, calling these poor people "loved ones"? If I could tell myself "never again", just for today, then I might make it through today in one piece. I came here and did that. I joined the class of August. I decided to focus on gratitude, after a couple days. And slowly things started to get better. Slowly they are continuing to get better. If I start to feel myself slipping, I run to this place like an olympian and read, and read, and read, and post. Take the day off. Cancel plans. Do WHATEVER IT TAKES. My sobriety is the most important thing in my life and after five months I have too much hope in my heart to let the addict inside take over again.
You can do it, too!!!
In Gratitude,
B[/QUOTE]
It was unremarkable as far as drunk days go. I said some stupid things, embarrassed myself, but nothing really particularly bad.
I had been a member of this forum for five years, coming every few months or so for a few days, sometimes lasting a month tops, at one point taking a year hiatus.
What I'm trying to articulate is that there was absolutely no significance to August 12, 2016. It was an entirely unspecial day. I woke up sweating, mind racing, panicking, hating myself, blocking people on Facebook so they couldn't see the things I had messaged them, feeling miserable, hating life.
Yeah, that stuff was just another day. There was nothing special about feeling that hopeless and horrible. If you are on this site you probably understand.
How many more days would I wake up like this? What other parts of my life would I tear apart in this inebriated bubble? How many more prisoners would I take, calling these poor people "loved ones"? If I could tell myself "never again", just for today, then I might make it through today in one piece. I came here and did that. I joined the class of August. I decided to focus on gratitude, after a couple days. And slowly things started to get better. Slowly they are continuing to get better. If I start to feel myself slipping, I run to this place like an olympian and read, and read, and read, and post. Take the day off. Cancel plans. Do WHATEVER IT TAKES. My sobriety is the most important thing in my life and after five months I have too much hope in my heart to let the addict inside take over again.
You can do it, too!!!
In Gratitude,
B[/QUOTE]
Keep going, it gets better. 
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Congratulations! You have probably given hope to many lurkers here. It took rehab for me, but I had a lot of other issues going on. I also never thought I could quit and was so envious of those on this board who were sober. For anyone reading this, you CAN do it!!
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