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Hi guys
I'm assuming that this is where I make my first post. I'm a functional alcoholic who is spiraling fast. I've known deep down for awhile but I kept making jokes about it, plus justifying it because I never drive when I drink.
It just stopped being funny lately and I'm tired of it. Tired of needing alcohol every single night, tired of feeling awful all day because I drank the night before. Tired of looking like a zombie all the time, of not living up to my full potential, and definitely tired of that drinking fog all the time.
The worst part though, is that I have 3 really amazing kids and they deserve better than this. I'm very loving to them and never neglect or abuse them but what if something happened one night ? I couldn't even drive.
And it just isn't a good example for them. It's also really taking a toll on my health. So, here I am. This may sound like a small thing, but I didn't drink at all last night
For me, that is a huge deal ! It is really awesome making up sober for the first time in a very, very long time
Sorry that I rambled on so long, lol.
It just stopped being funny lately and I'm tired of it. Tired of needing alcohol every single night, tired of feeling awful all day because I drank the night before. Tired of looking like a zombie all the time, of not living up to my full potential, and definitely tired of that drinking fog all the time.
The worst part though, is that I have 3 really amazing kids and they deserve better than this. I'm very loving to them and never neglect or abuse them but what if something happened one night ? I couldn't even drive.
And it just isn't a good example for them. It's also really taking a toll on my health. So, here I am. This may sound like a small thing, but I didn't drink at all last night
For me, that is a huge deal ! It is really awesome making up sober for the first time in a very, very long time
Sorry that I rambled on so long, lol.
SoAlover.. kiddo you never will ramble to long here. for the road is long deep and wide and dark for most of us.. stay with us. when you think you need a drink get on this board and wander thro the threads of lives this has harmed so much.. by the time you are done you will not want to drink.. just take a nap and be a better parent for your kids. promise.. cross my heart .. hugs and prayers for a better tomorrow..
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that's so good you didn't drink! we have similar stories being mothers depending on the wine at night, and recognizing we need to do this for our kids,because they don't deserve this. I have 2 myself and like you convinced myself in any way I could that I wasn't as bad as (...) because I didn't (......),But the reality is we drink too much and my kids if they ever needed me to get them to a hospital or anything, no matter how functioning and loving I might be, I couldn't get them to hospital and possibly endanger them. Its such a gut wrenching feeling when you realise this is the brutal truth, the guilt and shame is sickening. I'm glad youre here and today you didn't drink, that's one day down, I'm so happy to see you here and also making the right choice and going the right way. And I fully believe you wont drink today either!
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[QUOTE=columbus;6287563]"This may sound like a small thing, but I didn't drink at all last night"
That's freakin' HUGE!
I couldn't agree more that ha freakin' HUGE! High five! 🖐🏻👍🏼
That's freakin' HUGE!
I couldn't agree more that ha freakin' HUGE! High five! 🖐🏻👍🏼
Good to meet you, SoALover. Proud of you for not drinking last night. It is wonderful to wake up with a clear head & not wonder what we might have said or done the previous night. I'm glad you've decided to take this big step towards getting free.
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Thank you so much for the words of encouragement and warm welcome, everyone !
I have to admit, tonight so far, has been more of a struggle than last night. I was just out and wanted nothing more than to walk into a store near where I just was and grab a bottle of wine or a 6 pack.
But I'm very happy to say that I didn't do it, so tonight is another sober night for me
I feel like my body is begging me for alcohol tonight, I've been on the verge of a migraine all day and it has been s super stressful day. I feel like my brain is saying, hey...it's evening, where's the wine ?
I think joining here was an important step because I feel a sense of accountability now, and you have all been so kind and that helps a lot. It's really nice having the support of people who get this.
I have to admit, tonight so far, has been more of a struggle than last night. I was just out and wanted nothing more than to walk into a store near where I just was and grab a bottle of wine or a 6 pack.
But I'm very happy to say that I didn't do it, so tonight is another sober night for me
I feel like my body is begging me for alcohol tonight, I've been on the verge of a migraine all day and it has been s super stressful day. I feel like my brain is saying, hey...it's evening, where's the wine ?
I think joining here was an important step because I feel a sense of accountability now, and you have all been so kind and that helps a lot. It's really nice having the support of people who get this.
Welcome!!
Glad to hear you're beating your cravings. Boy, they can be rough sometimes! I feel like everytime I work through them I get a little bit stronger though.
Here is a link to the thread Pinky mentioned:
http://www.soberrecovery.com/forums/...-part-2-a.html
The whole group is people who have decided to quit drinking this month, so everyone is around the same stage in their recovery. Come hang out with us! We're very friendly, I promise!
Glad to hear you're beating your cravings. Boy, they can be rough sometimes! I feel like everytime I work through them I get a little bit stronger though.
Here is a link to the thread Pinky mentioned:
http://www.soberrecovery.com/forums/...-part-2-a.html
The whole group is people who have decided to quit drinking this month, so everyone is around the same stage in their recovery. Come hang out with us! We're very friendly, I promise!
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