carlingford

Hi everyone. I had a slip after 140 days over Christmas. 3 beers and PAWs right back big time. The leg itch still here effecting sleep.painful as F. Bain fog, dizziness and other symptoms all returned. At least i know now i am ilergic 100% to the poison. Just had to test it like an idiot. New plan now, keep away from old drinking buddies and pub. Had to delay return to work and big problems now financially and with missus. Bloods all good, but head is melting. Any thoughts, 3 beers OMG and square 1 ????? Thanks.

August252015

Glad you made it back.

What's your plan this time? You know you will feel better physically after a little bit, so what will you do then?

You can make this your last new start.

carlingford

Hi August,

Thanks for you reply; Getting better day by day T.G. yes my goal is remaining permanently clean. Its what I want and need to achieve everything in my life really. I will start attending meetings and look at new hobbies? I have to plan for life.

Maudcat

Welcome back. Begin anew.

thomas11

Glad you got right back to it carlingford. It's unfortunate you had to test it, but I understand it as well. I did it twice. Crazy thing is, I tested it because I wanted the excitement, the buzz, the zen feeling to be there, and it was gone. All that happened is that I got tired and a bit hungry and fell asleep. What kind of fun is that? Its not. So I quit.

columbus

I think you're a lucky, lucky man to learn your lesson after 3 beers

not 3 YEARS!

least

I hope this time you can stay sober for good.

Doug39

Don't beat yourself up over this slip. Just move forward.

In 2013 I quit drinking and lasted 117 days until I had some beer.

I felt like such a loser after that - mostly because it wasn't worth losing my sobriety for that drink.

I managed to just drink here and there after that but a few months later I was back to heavy alcohol abuse that lasted almost 3 more years.

Today I am 75 days sober and feeling great after 27 years of daily drinking.

Dee74

I'm glad you made it back Carlingford

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carlingford

Hi Doug39 thanks for your response, and well done on 71 Day glad you feeling better.

"mostly because it wasn't worth losing my sobriety for that drink."

exactly...... it was not worth it !!!! now I am still suffering PAWS and don't know if its the cycle of PAWS or the effect of the 3 beers.

Anyway, its history now and moving on at 12 days clean again.

But keep wondering if it is the 3 beers that has me feeling crap....
Did the 3 beers blow away all the brain reconnections of 140 days?
Any thoughts anyone?

Doug39

All I remember is feeling tremendous guilt over starting to drink again; when I had a few beers I just didn't enjoy it.

One of the main reasons I started drinking again was because my wife and all my friends were heavy drinkers and I was tired of being the oddball that just sat there sipping a Coke.

This time things are different. I need my sobriety to survive and I don't care what anyone else does, says or thinks.

carlingford

Thanks Doug, I feel exactly the same way, I have "crossed the Rubicon" and no way back as my body and brain cannot take even a few beers anymore. My wife is very supportive Thank God as I know I can be a bit cranky and abstract in my recovery especially when I don't get a good sleep The only way for me now is complete abstinence for the rest of my life. I know I will a lot happier when I get a few months behind me when brain fog lifts again and back working. I am hoping that happens sooner and trying to live a healthy life style now.

Zebra1275

Glad you made it back, sometimes that doesn't happen.

carlingford

Thanks Zebra, yeah I know how lucky I am, will not be going down that road again. NEVER.

Doug39

Sounds like a plan but don't put that pressure on yourself by saying NEVER.

One Day at a Time.

hellrzr

Sometimes crap has to happen for you to truly believe and accept you have a thinking problem and alcohol is no longer a solution for you. Good work putting it behind you and you'll rack up another 140 days before you know it!

carlingford

Thanks Hellrzr agreed, as alcoholism is progressive I think so is getting clean, I think it actually has made me stronger, bed now ZZZZZZZ Love SR

sortofhomecomin

Doug39 I think is correct. You had a slip. Your sobriety is essentially intact.

https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=WJYRfsOrQfM

carlingford

Hi everyone, its a new Day here, I will have another 24 Hours please
I appreciated all your comments and support, have a nice day

Horn95

I agree with this. It is not like you went on a bender. You had a slip and learned something from it. Also, this sort of thing is very common in even the most successful of recoveries. Don't beat your self up about it. In fact, I would not even characterize you as having to "start over." This is all part of the process, and you have been Sober for quite some time.