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Join Date: Jul 2014
Location: Philadelphia
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I'm back...
I posted on here a couple years ago, met a couple great people. Sobriety didn't really stick, though. I can't blame anyone but myself. I tried telling friends again, and just as before they made it about themselves. I know I'm telling the wrong people. I have plenty of friends who know me outside the bars, but they're friends I know so well I'm not sure I'm ready to heap this on them, if that makes any sense.
For now, I just want to get my sh*t straight. I can go two days here and there without booze, but then I just get bored. I have nothing to do. I go to the gym, then make excuses. I just want to get past four days, which I haven't done in a long time.
I'm gay, and I've thought about going to the gay meeting in Philly, but I know I'll see people I know. I'm also afraid going to a meeting full of strangers is just gonna make me anxious, and want to get a bottle of anything as soon as the meeting's over.
I know I'm not exuding a lot of hope. I'm just frustrated, and needed to put my feelings out there.
For now, I just want to get my sh*t straight. I can go two days here and there without booze, but then I just get bored. I have nothing to do. I go to the gym, then make excuses. I just want to get past four days, which I haven't done in a long time.
I'm gay, and I've thought about going to the gay meeting in Philly, but I know I'll see people I know. I'm also afraid going to a meeting full of strangers is just gonna make me anxious, and want to get a bottle of anything as soon as the meeting's over.
I know I'm not exuding a lot of hope. I'm just frustrated, and needed to put my feelings out there.
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Join Date: Dec 2012
Location: Orcas Island, Washington
Posts: 9,064
Hi Philly! It's good to read a post from you!
I'm bi, and am looking forward to going to a LGBT AA meeting while I am on vacation in a couple weeks. I know I'll meet some great people there.
Where I live is pretty small town, and so there were people I knew when I first walked into AA. They were glad to see me, and since then I am always happy to see a familiar face walk through the door.
Read and post here as long as you can!
I'm bi, and am looking forward to going to a LGBT AA meeting while I am on vacation in a couple weeks. I know I'll meet some great people there.
Where I live is pretty small town, and so there were people I knew when I first walked into AA. They were glad to see me, and since then I am always happy to see a familiar face walk through the door.
Read and post here as long as you can!
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Join Date: Jun 2013
Location: Atlanta
Posts: 2,872
Welcome back, glad you made it, some don't.
Yeah, when you walk into an AA meeting if you see people you don't know you'll get to know them.
Thing is, they're there for the same reason you are so you'll automatically have something in common with them. That's big. You're all there for the same reason and that's all that matters.
For me, it was a comfort and an intrinsic bond with strangers. I got to know some of them fairly quickly on a sobriety level, if you will.
I hope you do go. A gay meeting would be great, you'd have two things in common.
Wishing you the best.
Yeah, when you walk into an AA meeting if you see people you don't know you'll get to know them.
Thing is, they're there for the same reason you are so you'll automatically have something in common with them. That's big. You're all there for the same reason and that's all that matters.
For me, it was a comfort and an intrinsic bond with strangers. I got to know some of them fairly quickly on a sobriety level, if you will.
I hope you do go. A gay meeting would be great, you'd have two things in common.
Wishing you the best.
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Join Date: Apr 2014
Location: illinois
Posts: 907
Many of us dread boredom. So, try to keep busy as best you can.
Let me tell you about a thought someone shared with me though, that changed my life for the better: Boredom is not an emergency. It is not a permanent state, and does not require action.
When I thought about this and started paying attention, I realized that I was FREAKING OUT every time I felt bored. I've pretty much conquered this habit. Now I ask myself what I can do. If absolutely nothing sounds good, I sit with the Boredom. -it hasn't harmed me a bit yet. "So I'm bored...no big whup..."
Let me tell you about a thought someone shared with me though, that changed my life for the better: Boredom is not an emergency. It is not a permanent state, and does not require action.
When I thought about this and started paying attention, I realized that I was FREAKING OUT every time I felt bored. I've pretty much conquered this habit. Now I ask myself what I can do. If absolutely nothing sounds good, I sit with the Boredom. -it hasn't harmed me a bit yet. "So I'm bored...no big whup..."
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Welcome back 
a recovery plan is a great starting point. Lots of ideas here
http://www.soberrecovery.com/forums/...ery-plans.html
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a recovery plan is a great starting point. Lots of ideas here
http://www.soberrecovery.com/forums/...ery-plans.html
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