Day 4 and cautiously optimistic
Day 4 and cautiously optimistic
So far I haven't been sleeping much but that's to be expected.
For the past 12 years I have been a heavy drinker, the past 5 practically daily. My friends are all heavy drinkers as well, which is why i thought this forum may be a good place. My BF can also be a heavy drinker at times, but unlike me he can also enjoy nights off or just 1 or 2 beers. I open a bottle of wine and damnit i'm finishing it....and just one bottle is a good night.
I would say my MAJOR motivation is my health. I've been telling myself for years that i'm too young for any serious problems, but to be honest I know that's not true and simply a reassuring lie i keep telling myself.
Another major motivation for me is my future – ambition wise. I feel like i've been self sabotaging myself for over a decade. It's like i'm completely misrepresenting myself either through words or actions when i'm drunk or hungover....Constantly giving 20% if that...and so I drink again to forget that fact.
I constantly see this inspirational post online " She designed the life she loved" and it makes me sad cause I truly believe if I don't stop it'll read "She drank the life she hated".
I simply don't want to waste my talent and time on this earth.
I guess that's all.
Thanks for taking the time to read
For the past 12 years I have been a heavy drinker, the past 5 practically daily. My friends are all heavy drinkers as well, which is why i thought this forum may be a good place. My BF can also be a heavy drinker at times, but unlike me he can also enjoy nights off or just 1 or 2 beers. I open a bottle of wine and damnit i'm finishing it....and just one bottle is a good night.
I would say my MAJOR motivation is my health. I've been telling myself for years that i'm too young for any serious problems, but to be honest I know that's not true and simply a reassuring lie i keep telling myself.
Another major motivation for me is my future – ambition wise. I feel like i've been self sabotaging myself for over a decade. It's like i'm completely misrepresenting myself either through words or actions when i'm drunk or hungover....Constantly giving 20% if that...and so I drink again to forget that fact.
I constantly see this inspirational post online " She designed the life she loved" and it makes me sad cause I truly believe if I don't stop it'll read "She drank the life she hated".
I simply don't want to waste my talent and time on this earth.
I guess that's all.
Thanks for taking the time to read
Cautiously optimistic
"Cautiously optimistic" seems wise to me. When I first started trying to quit drinking, I was a bit too much in the land of "everything is great, woo-hoo!" In retrospect I think I was trying to run from the not-so-great sides of recovery, like early recovery symptoms, worrying about my health and so forth. Ironically, the land of "everything is great" was exhausting for me and I went back to drinking.
Nowadays, I'm a grateful realist. Much more helpful for sustained sobriety. Seems a bit like your cautious optimism. Congratulations on your good work! AND, for your smarts to think through where you are with all of this at the same time.
Nowadays, I'm a grateful realist. Much more helpful for sustained sobriety. Seems a bit like your cautious optimism. Congratulations on your good work! AND, for your smarts to think through where you are with all of this at the same time.
Hi Ina and welcome. You sound like a very self-aware person. Coming here and posting is a huge step for many. Stick around and you'll find a lot of support and success stories. I can totally relate to drinking sabotaging ambition and motivation. I always felt like crap the next day. I didn't even realize how crappy I felt until I got sober! :-)
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