Munchkin94

Today is day 3 for me but it has sucked more than the last two days combined. My drink is poured and sitting on the coffee table. The only reason I haven't taken a sip yet is that it stinks. I have brought it to my lips 3 times and can't get past the smell...

There are just too many personal issues in my life right now for me to think I can actually quit...sorry...I definitely let myself down but I can't do this right now. Good luck to all, I am just not strong enough...peace...if this is my exit ticket, so be it...I'm ready...

Munchkin94

I am done trying...I can't do it anymore...I may be just asking for help but I'm not sure?

Munchkin94

I am actually thinking about killing myself tonight...

doggonecarl

Care to elaborate? What issue in your life will be resolved by drinking? Or makes you think has to be resolved to quit.

tomsteve

i think asking for help is exactly what youre doin.

"There are just too many personal issues in my life right now for me to think I can actually quit."

thats a lie. its the best time to quit and face the issues.
dump the drink at tell us whats happenin so we can try and help

Delilah1

Hi Munchkin,

Dump the drink and call 911, we all have days where things seem too much. You started posting on here the other day because you want to make changes in your life.

Is there anyone home with you? Friends/family nearby?

Munchkin94

I want to make a difference in my life

SoberLeigh

^^^^ what Delilah said!!!!!!

We care about you, Munchkin. Make the 911 call.

Jillwink

Where is your daughter? Can you talk to her? Please be strong for her and remember how bad you felt when she left because you were drunk the other night. Read here. Do you have any books about sobriety in the house?

ScottFromWI

If you are serious about this please call 911 or your local suicide prevention hotline immediately.. We take threats of self harm quite l seriously here as want to make sure you are getting the help you need.

doggonecarl

Then make it to day four....then five....and on and on and you will be in a position to make a difference in your life. But that difference is build on a sober foundation.

Recovery from alcohol. That would really make a difference.

SoberLeigh

You can make that difference in your life; start now by pouring the drink and calling 911. The difference in your life can start with a sober and healthy Munchkin.

SoCalDude

http://www.soberrecovery.com/forums/...ease-read.html

There is some good information here as well.. But we're here for you! It's hard to dump the drink, trust me, I stared at my last drink for 2 days. Kept walking by it like it was the elephant in the room, the source of all of my grief, and misery. I had to call a friend over and tell them everything, I needed SOMEONE to know, I then joined SR and began an on and off relationship here. I seem to always make my way back every 6 months just to keep myself in check.

I agree with everyone, please call a prevention hotline, we want to see your success story, not your last story.

SuzyCube

Munchkin,

I myself am new here but I have read your posts and I know you don't want to hurt yourself. You want to help yourself. As a survivor of suicide, I want you to know that you can't do that to your daughter. I lost my mother and it left a huge hole in my heart and my ex committed suicide and took what was left. You don't want to do that. It's a terrible thing to go through and the grieving process is long and painful. Please, can you call your daughter or a friend? Dump the drink, it's not doing you any favors and it never will.

Thinking of you,
SuzyCube

Pebbles128

I'm only on day 7 but each day I felt a little better. I feel MUCH better than I was feeling earlier this week because I didn't drink. I stopped. I have lots of family issues going on now too but drinking isn't going to make them go away, drinking will just make it worse. Harming yourself isn't the answer either. Call someone. Call 911. Get help now.

fgo

We are all here for you.

least

It takes a while after getting sober to start feeling better. Please stay sober and give yourself a chance to see how much better your life will be sober.

Anna

Please go to an ER if you are feeling suicidal.

I hope that you decide to stop drinking. You will find lots of support here.

Dee74

In 6 months time or a year , or 2 or 5 years there's going to be more issues more despair and more things you can look at as reasons not to quit

However hard it might look, today really is the easiest day for you to quit out of all possible dates.

You not alone here either. W've got your back.

Tell your addiction to go take a hike. You'll start to feel more human soon, I promise

If you need support right now please do call 911.

D

Hawkeye13

drinking often made me sad and depressed

it will get better--your daughter needs you