Got Wasted and Ranted at my Fiance...
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Got Wasted and Ranted at my Fiance...
I don't even know what set me off. One minute I was fine and the next minute all hell broke loose. I made her cry, brought up all kinds of hurtful stuff and I can't tell you why I did it. I don't even know if she'll stay with me after this. I wouldn't blame her if she didn't.
This keeps happening and I have no control over what I say and how much I drink, which is the root problem.
I just wanted someone to talk to. She's my best friend so...Can't talk to her anymore
This keeps happening and I have no control over what I say and how much I drink, which is the root problem.
I just wanted someone to talk to. She's my best friend so...Can't talk to her anymore
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Jimmy,
I have to assume you had been drinking when you behaved this way. When I drank I would often go off about dumb stuff and say terrible things to people I loved. I would suffer the shame the next day and make promises that I never would keep and the process would repeat itself. For me there was only one answer, quit drinking. Slowly my loved ones began to trust me again and more importantly love me again. It takes a long time to regain that trust but it can be done. It all starts with not drinking, day one my friend. You have to do that for you and I think all the other stuff will fall into place.
I have to assume you had been drinking when you behaved this way. When I drank I would often go off about dumb stuff and say terrible things to people I loved. I would suffer the shame the next day and make promises that I never would keep and the process would repeat itself. For me there was only one answer, quit drinking. Slowly my loved ones began to trust me again and more importantly love me again. It takes a long time to regain that trust but it can be done. It all starts with not drinking, day one my friend. You have to do that for you and I think all the other stuff will fall into place.
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Hi Matt, I've been here before and was doing OK. I stayed off the booze and things were going pretty well. Then I though I'll just have one...And I did. But then the weeks passed and that one turned into ten, then ten and a bottle, so now I'm back here again at square one, with the second Christmas I've ruined under my belt. I don't want to be this person, but I don't want to be the 'i can't drink' person either.
The good news Jimmy, is you don't have to keep repeating this cycle, you can finally draw a line under it and say no more to all the misery alcohol is causing in your life.
With the right plan, the right support and changing up your actions and decisions . . .
It can be done!!
With the right plan, the right support and changing up your actions and decisions . . .
It can be done!!
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Don't know whether to call it 'contradictory', but (truly) leaving no room for alcohol is quite possibly the hardest thing to do mentally early on, but it's also what will keep you from the bottle later on. Decisively cutting out the "On a Sunday, after years of sobriety" type fantasies, which are the likeliest of culprits in picking up again, is key.
My 2 cents.
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Well there's no point in moping I know that much. What's done is done. I hope I can fix things though and start getting sober properly this time.
I guess the first leg is survive today! Then go and get some decent food in the morning.
I guess the first leg is survive today! Then go and get some decent food in the morning.
Hope fully you can fix things but there is no guarantee it won't happen again unless you stop drinking. I know when I did thgat sort of stuff it diudnt matter what I said afterwards it was only when I stopped drinking and time that people realised it wouldn't happen again.
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All I know is I want to quit so badly this time...
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There's a lot of good info out there about the biochemistry of alcohol addiction.
Here's one article...
https://www.promises.com/resources/a...hol-addictive/
Here's one article...
https://www.promises.com/resources/a...hol-addictive/
Also reach out for that all important 2nd opinion from now on were here
I was that guy for a very long time. The guy who didn't want to be the 'I can't drink' person. A couple of decades.
One day I figured out why drinking was so important to me that I'd risk everything so I didn't have to be the 'I can't drink' person.
Then I did something about that.
Then I was free.
Best of Luck on Your Journey.
One day I figured out why drinking was so important to me that I'd risk everything so I didn't have to be the 'I can't drink' person.
Then I did something about that.
Then I was free.
Best of Luck on Your Journey.
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Your post felt so guilt ridden I feel for you friend! and my only wish for you today is to really sit down and begin to forgive yourself. Start to realize that we are all just fleshy bodies trying to figure out life as we go forward in time! Forgive yourself and with time if you cut down on the drinking, others will see/feel it off you that you are getting your stuff together
All the best to you
All the best to you
Hi Jimmy,
There is lots of support on this site to help you with recovery. The monthly classes, and 24 hour thread are two good places to check in each day.
Try flipping your thinking about not drinking anymore. Rather than, I can't drink anymore, I get to do... because I am sober and healthy.
SR, exercise, journaling, and mindfulness have been the biggest components of my recovery. I am a few days shy of one year sober, and life is so much bette and easier to deal with, even on the tough days.
Looking forward to seeing you on here.
There is lots of support on this site to help you with recovery. The monthly classes, and 24 hour thread are two good places to check in each day.
Try flipping your thinking about not drinking anymore. Rather than, I can't drink anymore, I get to do... because I am sober and healthy.
SR, exercise, journaling, and mindfulness have been the biggest components of my recovery. I am a few days shy of one year sober, and life is so much bette and easier to deal with, even on the tough days.
Looking forward to seeing you on here.
Jimmy - I'm sorry that happened to you. I know how devastating it is. That's why I had to stop, even though I was reluctant. In the end, there were never any good times when I drank. It always led to me being confrontational & saying things I had no memory of the next day. People were hurt and confused. The only way to avoid that was to stop all together. There was obviously never going to be any control. It was wonderful to get free of it. You can do it.
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