newhope01

So sorry, but I relapsed My husband told me to kill myself. But I know better. I just needed to talk about it,

PurpleKnight

SR is here for you Newhope!!

Delilah1

I'm glad you are here and posting today. Do you have any close friends or family you can be with today?

least

Sorry to say, but your husband doesn't sound very supportive. But you've got us on your side.

Soberwolf

I'm just really glad your with us NewHope it's really good to see you hun x

BringingBackB

I'm glad you are here and posting. Stay close to us

pooky

I'm sorry. We are here to listen.

Conquest

Huge hugs your way today

Anna

Newhope, I am so very sorry that you are suffering. Please know that we are here for you.

PhoenixJ

NH- you very few words shout so many possible things which muster up lots of questions I think of to try and offer something useful to support you. Do you have a counsellor? Someone outside the 'square' you can unload on?
SR is a wonderful place for support, for reading. There is a lot of threads- a ladies only space, a thread for family/friends of alcoholics..
Stay safe, keep posting. Prayers sending to you and your family. PJ

Algorithm

You should take a pass on killing yourself, but you're a certified addictions counselor. You must know that this is simply wrong for you.

Why did you drink again?

What do you intend to do about this?

ChloeRose63

Sounds like your husband has had enough of your addiction. Have you? As for killing yourself...maybe that's what your husband sees you doing when you drink your poison. We are here for support. Please get help for the both of you.

UnixBer

Please reThink and avoid your DOC if at all you can and feel like it.

newhope01

It felt good to read everyone's responses and I'm glad I didn't hurt myself. Thank you all for being there.

Truthseeker11

Please know that your husband probably didn't mean what he said, but I know it hurts. He just probably hates the power the drink has over you. Don't internalize it. Can you get some kind of help? I am finally reaching out for help and I wish I would have done it sooner.

Hevyn

We're your friends, Newhope - we won't judge you or let you down. I'm so glad you posted. You can get back on track and regain your sobriety & strength.

Dee74

I hope your husband's remark was a once off.
Have you considered rehab NewHope?

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Notimetoloose

newhope01, people say stupid and painful stuff every day and it can really amp up if one is under pressure.
We simply can not use drink as a response to stupid or painful statements or stupid actions of others...it can take a bit of practice but a better healthier reaction to stupid, painful comments or situations is needed....and just as drinking became the default response a new better default can take its place....never take that first drink work through it.

FreedomCA

Addiction can be such a sad disease. It's so painful to see loved ones relapse because our loved ones are faced with the difficult decision to stay and love you and give you another chance or take care of themselves and go. It's all very painful to go through. All you can really do at this point is strive to get back your Day 1 and take it one day at a time.

FreeOwl

I'm sorry you relapsed. Don't be too hard on yourself. Focus on the next steps to staying sober TODAY.

Also - if my husband told me to kill myself, I would leave my husband. That is uncalled for, inappropriate, unloving, uncaring and unacceptable.

You're worthy and you're a soul crafted from Love and Beauty.

Don't let others crush you.