four years later
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four years later
Tonight as I write a paper for grad school, I remembered SR. I'm currently in school for my Masters of Social Work and the writing prompt is a reflection on a time we had to ask for help.
Considering I have lived a fairly privileged life as a white, middle class, educated woman, I have been pretty fortunate in my life in terms of needing help. I have never experienced racism. I have never been homeless. I have never been denied access to healthcare. I have never lost a job. I have never gone hungry.
The most pain I have ever been in was during my relationship with my now ex-ABF. I joined SR at age 21, completely isolated and desperate and just needing the wisdom of strangers to tell me I could survive. And I have. It took me over a year after posting here that I was done with the relationship to actually ask for help from my mom. And it took 2 more to finally cut all ties. I haven't spoken to this ex partner in three months officially now. I feel so lonely still. But free. I no longer wake up to a **** soaked mattress. I'm not hyper-vigilant all of the time, or living in a state of constant denial. It is not easy, by any means. I am in therapy, go to occasional Al Anon meetings, have had to learn the hard way repeatedly that I have some VERY deeply rooted trust issues with men. Dating has been an absolute disaster, and now, at 26, I am learning what it's like to be a self sufficient woman. It's lonely. But it's not scary. I am no longer scared that I'll be stuck in a **** hole forever. I guess I just wanted to say thank you to the kind strangers that told 21 year old me that I would be okay. Because you were right.
Considering I have lived a fairly privileged life as a white, middle class, educated woman, I have been pretty fortunate in my life in terms of needing help. I have never experienced racism. I have never been homeless. I have never been denied access to healthcare. I have never lost a job. I have never gone hungry.
The most pain I have ever been in was during my relationship with my now ex-ABF. I joined SR at age 21, completely isolated and desperate and just needing the wisdom of strangers to tell me I could survive. And I have. It took me over a year after posting here that I was done with the relationship to actually ask for help from my mom. And it took 2 more to finally cut all ties. I haven't spoken to this ex partner in three months officially now. I feel so lonely still. But free. I no longer wake up to a **** soaked mattress. I'm not hyper-vigilant all of the time, or living in a state of constant denial. It is not easy, by any means. I am in therapy, go to occasional Al Anon meetings, have had to learn the hard way repeatedly that I have some VERY deeply rooted trust issues with men. Dating has been an absolute disaster, and now, at 26, I am learning what it's like to be a self sufficient woman. It's lonely. But it's not scary. I am no longer scared that I'll be stuck in a **** hole forever. I guess I just wanted to say thank you to the kind strangers that told 21 year old me that I would be okay. Because you were right.
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therisonlyair.....as a social worker...you will get a chance to help others who are isolated and desperately need support and help!
I want to thank you for taking the time to share this much appreciated "report"!!!
I am proud of you, that, you didn't give up!
Drop by, any time...as there are always others, here, who are needing support.....
I want to thank you for taking the time to share this much appreciated "report"!!!
I am proud of you, that, you didn't give up!
Drop by, any time...as there are always others, here, who are needing support.....
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