A confession....
Whatever it takes - just for today.
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Join Date: Dec 2016
Location: Canberra, Australia
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A confession....
This morning, as I stood in the kitchen making coffee, I looked at the spot behind the front door where I keep my recycling....7 empty wine bottles, 7 that I haven't yet thrown away in shame this week, 7 remants of my first 4 days of this week, 7 reasons why I am always broke, 7 reasons why I need to make a change, 7 reasons why I am an alcoholic.
I woke this morning after a very bad nights sleep, feeling shaky and weak. I am still shaky, still tired but no longer feeling weak. These 7 bottles are now 8. Joined by an empty bottle of cooking port which I emptied into the sink this morning. My house is now officially alcohol free!
I'm off to a Beginners meeting very soon and although I am struggling with the simple task of getting ready and out door (like I do every morning), I am looking forward to this meeting like my life depends on it, because it does!
A good morning/afternoon and evening to you all. I wish you all a safe and sober day with little things to make you smile.
Thanks for listening....again xx
I woke this morning after a very bad nights sleep, feeling shaky and weak. I am still shaky, still tired but no longer feeling weak. These 7 bottles are now 8. Joined by an empty bottle of cooking port which I emptied into the sink this morning. My house is now officially alcohol free!
I'm off to a Beginners meeting very soon and although I am struggling with the simple task of getting ready and out door (like I do every morning), I am looking forward to this meeting like my life depends on it, because it does!
A good morning/afternoon and evening to you all. I wish you all a safe and sober day with little things to make you smile.
Thanks for listening....again xx
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Those are some good observations and positive steps forward Scruffanie, good job on getting rid of all the extra alcohol. I hope you enjoy your meeting and meet some helpful people, i'm sure they will be happy to see you there.
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You know what I don't miss? Hiding empties.
I used to have nightmares where I would be trying to hide dead bodies but they were always in plain sight, I couldn't hide them.. The bodies represented those empty bottles I had hidden in drawers, closets, and even in my car.. The shame was so intense my subconscious equated it to having to hide a person I had killed.
I mean... seriously!
I used to have nightmares where I would be trying to hide dead bodies but they were always in plain sight, I couldn't hide them.. The bodies represented those empty bottles I had hidden in drawers, closets, and even in my car.. The shame was so intense my subconscious equated it to having to hide a person I had killed.
I mean... seriously!
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Originally Posted by ChloeRose63 
Those nightmares can really be bizarre. Especially the first days of detoxing!
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Join Date: Jan 2014
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hey.....
have you made a CHOICE for sobriety?
The beginner's meeting is great.
Getting rid of the boooze and bottles - excellent steps.
But have you said to yourself, aloud, maybe even looking in the mirror into your own eyes "I CHOOSE SOBRIETY, AND I AM TAKING ACTION TO SUPPORT AND HONOR THAT CHOICE".
If not, you might give it a shot.
you can do this.
have you made a CHOICE for sobriety?
The beginner's meeting is great.
Getting rid of the boooze and bottles - excellent steps.
But have you said to yourself, aloud, maybe even looking in the mirror into your own eyes "I CHOOSE SOBRIETY, AND I AM TAKING ACTION TO SUPPORT AND HONOR THAT CHOICE".
If not, you might give it a shot.
you can do this.
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Originally Posted by BrendaChenowyth
You know what I don't miss? Hiding empties.
I used to have nightmares where I would be trying to hide dead bodies but they were always in plain sight, I couldn't hide them.. The bodies represented those empty bottles I had hidden in drawers, closets, and even in my car.. The shame was so intense my subconscious equated it to having to hide a person I had killed.
I mean... seriously!
I used to have nightmares where I would be trying to hide dead bodies but they were always in plain sight, I couldn't hide them.. The bodies represented those empty bottles I had hidden in drawers, closets, and even in my car.. The shame was so intense my subconscious equated it to having to hide a person I had killed.
I mean... seriously!
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