I'm Back
I Just Keep Coming Back
Thread Starter
Join Date: Aug 2012
Posts: 97
I'm Back
Good evening all,
It's been several weeks since I've shared here. I wish I could share that I'm sober, but I'm not. I played loose with my sobriety, got big in my britches and thought I could play with the beast.
So, as I sit here typing with shaky hands, nausea, mysterious bruises and a black eye from a fall, I'm on day one.
Thanks for having me back.
It's been several weeks since I've shared here. I wish I could share that I'm sober, but I'm not. I played loose with my sobriety, got big in my britches and thought I could play with the beast.
So, as I sit here typing with shaky hands, nausea, mysterious bruises and a black eye from a fall, I'm on day one.
Thanks for having me back.
Member
Join Date: Mar 2016
Location: NC
Posts: 662
Welcome back! I have been in your shoes more times than I can count. The only thing there is to do is stand back up and move forward. I kept doing the same thing over and over again and wondering why I couldn't get into recovery. The only thing that helped me was basically turning my world upside down and changing each and every single thing about my life. Once I changed what I was doing and how I was viewing recovery things started to fall into place.
YOU CAN DO THIS! Even if it might not feel like you can this moment, take it one day at a time- hell one minute at a time and never stop fighting for yourself. You are worth it and it might be hell at times, but keep pushing through it- I promise you it is worth it.
YOU CAN DO THIS! Even if it might not feel like you can this moment, take it one day at a time- hell one minute at a time and never stop fighting for yourself. You are worth it and it might be hell at times, but keep pushing through it- I promise you it is worth it.
I Just Keep Coming Back
Thread Starter
Join Date: Aug 2012
Posts: 97
Originally Posted by Dee74 
Welcome back - whats your plan this time? what are you going to do differently? 
It's been 4 weeks since I've been to church. I began isolating myself and I've learned I need accountability to make it.
Community Greeter
Join Date: Aug 2007
Location: Upstate New York
Posts: 51,560
Good to see you back, VQ. I made that mistake too many times - thought all I needed was willpower. Once I realized there could never be any control, I gave up the idea of moderating - and got free. You can do it.
Blue Belt
Join Date: Jul 2015
Location: Soberville, USA
Posts: 4,174
Vib,
The reason I asked about days clean was because...imo...you don't really feel the hellish crave , anxiety, paranoia etc. For a while..1 months or so is only the beginning of the mental hell.
Dealing w that w out any drugs is what has helped me stay clean and take a hard line against relapse.
Make it about 6 months clean and you will have some idea of the depth of damage alcohol has done...make it a year...you could be free...thanks to sr.
The world according to D122y.
Thanks.
The reason I asked about days clean was because...imo...you don't really feel the hellish crave , anxiety, paranoia etc. For a while..1 months or so is only the beginning of the mental hell.
Dealing w that w out any drugs is what has helped me stay clean and take a hard line against relapse.
Make it about 6 months clean and you will have some idea of the depth of damage alcohol has done...make it a year...you could be free...thanks to sr.
The world according to D122y.
Thanks.
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