2 drinky years and I'm back
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2 drinky years and I'm back
Hi all,
After too many day 1's to count I've returned to particpaiting on this forum with 10 days sober under my belt. A lot has happened over the last two years- some good, some bad but the one consistent was that every time I went back to drinking it became worse. This last year my occasional binges started becoming more frequent with these last 4 months esculating up to 2-4 days a session. Without going into too much detail, things are different this time in regards to my wants, fears, plan and goals. It's a good different and I hope to continue to learn from you all and contribute where I can.
Let's do this!!
After too many day 1's to count I've returned to particpaiting on this forum with 10 days sober under my belt. A lot has happened over the last two years- some good, some bad but the one consistent was that every time I went back to drinking it became worse. This last year my occasional binges started becoming more frequent with these last 4 months esculating up to 2-4 days a session. Without going into too much detail, things are different this time in regards to my wants, fears, plan and goals. It's a good different and I hope to continue to learn from you all and contribute where I can.
Let's do this!!
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Join Date: Sep 2014
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Thanks all! Excited to be back.
As for my Plan:
First, I've taken note of triggers from my failed attempts and have listed them. I very much beleive that mindfulness and being very aware of these keeps me out of the red zone. It's easier to fight when I'm not already slipping. HALT plays a key role in this too. I'm also putting my sobriety first which I thought I was doing before but it was frankly bull****. It's the first thing I address when I wake up and the last thing before I sleep. I journal, even if I have nothing I want to say- just put anything on the page to keep from going too far into abstract negative thoughts. Coming here everyday to read and reaching out if I need to or giving if it can help. And lastly, focusing on the sober person I want to be. I need to be. Whether it's career, my art, my family, my body- all of it- I want to do and have as a sober person. It's fun and scary and I try to work it all everyday.
As for my Plan:
First, I've taken note of triggers from my failed attempts and have listed them. I very much beleive that mindfulness and being very aware of these keeps me out of the red zone. It's easier to fight when I'm not already slipping. HALT plays a key role in this too. I'm also putting my sobriety first which I thought I was doing before but it was frankly bull****. It's the first thing I address when I wake up and the last thing before I sleep. I journal, even if I have nothing I want to say- just put anything on the page to keep from going too far into abstract negative thoughts. Coming here everyday to read and reaching out if I need to or giving if it can help. And lastly, focusing on the sober person I want to be. I need to be. Whether it's career, my art, my family, my body- all of it- I want to do and have as a sober person. It's fun and scary and I try to work it all everyday.
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So glad you made it back. And lovely you have so many goals. I'd suggest thinking of those goals (the things you want out of sobriety) as your destination. Your plan for recovery is more about how you're going to get there. What you will be actively doing (and how often) that will enable you to achieve what you want.
How are you planning to avoid the HALT triggers (Hunger-Anger-Lonely-Tired ) and deal with them should they rear their rattley little heads. How do you intend to remain mindful?
Dee's thread is very good for adding things to a plan to make it more robust, so it might be worth looking through his links ... http://www.soberrecovery.com/forums/...ery-plans.html
Anyway. Like I said. It's great that you're back. I wish you all the best for your recovery. BB
How are you planning to avoid the HALT triggers (Hunger-Anger-Lonely-Tired ) and deal with them should they rear their rattley little heads. How do you intend to remain mindful?
Dee's thread is very good for adding things to a plan to make it more robust, so it might be worth looking through his links ... http://www.soberrecovery.com/forums/...ery-plans.html
Anyway. Like I said. It's great that you're back. I wish you all the best for your recovery. BB
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right on. welcome back.
when I was in a similar position in my reovery, AA and The Big Book were a really helpful ingredient in my sobriety. I way 'ingredient' because it took all the things you mention, PLUS a community of like-minded people to relate with regularly, a program that had clear and helpful steps to either follow or at least deeply think about and find the applicability of to my life. It wasn't "for me" for a long, long time..... but when I accepted that it might have something to offer, opened my mind and heart, it really became a powerful tool in my own journey. A journey of sobriety that continues to work, to deepen and to result in a great life.
when I was in a similar position in my reovery, AA and The Big Book were a really helpful ingredient in my sobriety. I way 'ingredient' because it took all the things you mention, PLUS a community of like-minded people to relate with regularly, a program that had clear and helpful steps to either follow or at least deeply think about and find the applicability of to my life. It wasn't "for me" for a long, long time..... but when I accepted that it might have something to offer, opened my mind and heart, it really became a powerful tool in my own journey. A journey of sobriety that continues to work, to deepen and to result in a great life.
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Being completely honest and we
will never have to return to make
our amends.
Welcome back as you build your
strong, solid recovery foundation
to live your life upon for many one
days sober ahead of you.
will never have to return to make
our amends.
Welcome back as you build your
strong, solid recovery foundation
to live your life upon for many one
days sober ahead of you.
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