Findingtheway

So these aren't exactly new. I've had a few in the past nearly 23 months sober.

But this one from last night was VIVID. It felt real. The whole bit...I was at a hotel (resort) a nice one...Somewhere tropical i think.

Hiding bottles in my room (laundry), under the mattress.

On auto-pilot the whole time. My Boss randomly checked in at the same resort and saw me...And was like...Hey you're on vacation here too?

I think that's partly my guilty conscious or something...My Boss has been a great support of my getting and staying sober.

Hate the feeling of waking out of these. I hadn't had one in awhile. The guilt/fear etc of feeling like you HAVE broken your sobriety is quite real.

Then the relief is good when you realize. It was ONLY a dream. I'm not back in the nightmare again. I'm sober.

I'm here. I'm alive.

Just needed to get that out. Thanks as always SR.

I'm not drinking today!

Findingtheway

SinkingFeeling9

Wow, I was about to post about this sort of thing. I'm only on day 3, but I finally got some sleep, I had VIVID nightmares......not so much about alcohol. I usually experience the hiding the bottle dreams further on in sobriety. Last night, I had dream after dream about my loved ones, that I know I've hurt lately. It's such an unsettling feeling to start the day

Dee74

Good to hear from you findingtheway

I never put much stock in those dreams meaning anything - I figure as long as I'm not drinking when I'm awake I'm doing ok

I haven't has a drinking one for a while but I still get vivid ones.

D

Michelle644

I still have dreams about smoking. And, I quit almost 6 years ago. I would wake up and taste the Newport's on my lips. For a quick second you want one till you realize it was just a dream.

PhoenixJ

Drunk dreams don't destroy! Well , I have 'em sometimes. No rhyme or reason to them- except perhaps I used to drink. Yep they suck. A good reminder what the monster under the bed can be.