MidnightRider

If I was keeping score..... I'd be winning this year.
On and off..... I've been sober 6 months out of the past 10 months.

Seems I make it 60 days and then slip for a month or so. It's been my pattern and I've made it 60 days 3 times since January.

Today (Sunday) is the start of day 4 after about a month of daily drinking.

SO happy that I was able to stop again...."Just in time for the holidays!"

I am so pleased to go to bed tonight sober. I feel so much better and I'm awake at Midnight!

I worked on setting up and cleaning my guitar this evening. Something I could never do drunk! Now it's looking and sounding great.

Anyways, just wanted to check in.

MR

Dee74

Welcome back MidnightRider

Maybe a better, more detailed plan could help you break the 60 day hoodoo?

D

Delilah1

Welcome back! I found complacency was my downfall in the past, I have made it a point to do something for recovery each day. Logging on here daily is important to me. What have you been doing during your 60 day periods to help stay sober? What do you think you could add to help you get past that hurdle?

SnazzyDresser

Hi, MidnightRider!

teaorcoffee

Hi MR,
I keep seeing your thread header and singing to myself. Back to life, back to sobriety.
It's sort of where I am at the moment. I feel more alive because I'm not dealing with a constant low grade hangover.
I've looked at all the bargains I've made with myself in the past. Only on weekends. Only outside of the house etc. I last about a week each time, if that. So I've finally realised that it's all or nothing for me.
I think we may be in a similar place.

5upersonic

Hi MR

I haven't read of anyone doing this first go, we need to learn to pick ourselves up and go again. But there are many who have made their last relapse their very last one. Make it yours!

MidnightRider

Ah morning... feeling really good! I guess withdrawal is easier the 4th time.

Yeah.. I reckon that not too many are able to quit the first time around.

All I know, that during the last month of drinking every day. I hated myself! I was hiding it from everyone. That made it worse. PLUS, I hated the way I was feeling.

If I can say one thing that I hate about booze. It makes me want to do NOTHING. Plus after 5-6 drinks ... I can't do anything anyway!

Can this be the last time? I hope so....

What will make me go the distance? I can't let myself think that I can have a drink like "normal" folks. Damn .... one drink just leads to misery.

Thanks all.. Have a great sober Sunday or Evening if you are on that part of the earth ...

FLCamper

I made it a few times to 28 or 29 days. It was a mental "thing" to go to 30. I figured out that that was my downfall and planned ahead to be sure I had plans for those few days to get through the mental "wall" and it worked.
Keep at it!

january161992

great job

MidnightRider

Me again..

Amazing how quick I'm feeling normal.

I like feeling normal! Not drunk..

teaorcoffee

With you on that one MR

Dee74

gotten any farther with a plan , MR?

D

MidnightRider

Hi Dee.. Not yet.

Thanks and any pointers are appreciated.

I don't do AA or any meetings. That may be a good choice ?

CajunPrincess

Welcome back!