One year ago...
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One year ago...
I was a sobbing, scared, inconsolable mess during the 4-hour drive to a 7 week inpatient rehab program.
Best thing I ever did.
One year ago, I began my sober life. I no longer have to hide bottles, wonder what I said the night before, hate myself and feel like crap in the morning, promise myself I wouldn't drink that day and break that promise by 6pm, argue with my kids when silence was the better choice....well, the list goes on.
If you're reading this wishing that could be you, it can. I was you a year ago. I never thought I could go a day, much less a year, without my nightly glass or 5 of wine. I never knew I had this kind of strength and perseverance....I envied those who did.
I'm writing to give those who are still suffering hope. There IS a better life out there. You don't have to feel the way you do. If you're toying with the idea of rehab, GO! (but do your homework first and research the hell out of treatment programs.) Rehab gave me a head start, a new mindset and peace. If you're afraid to stop drinking, give it a chance. What's the worst that could happen? You could always go back to drinking if you don't like it.
It hasn't been as difficult as I thought it would be. Cravings won't kill you and they pass. A day turns into 2, which turns into a week, then a month, and now here I am a year later. It doesn't seem that long ago.
Wishing you all peace, at whatever stage you're at.
Best thing I ever did.
One year ago, I began my sober life. I no longer have to hide bottles, wonder what I said the night before, hate myself and feel like crap in the morning, promise myself I wouldn't drink that day and break that promise by 6pm, argue with my kids when silence was the better choice....well, the list goes on.
If you're reading this wishing that could be you, it can. I was you a year ago. I never thought I could go a day, much less a year, without my nightly glass or 5 of wine. I never knew I had this kind of strength and perseverance....I envied those who did.
I'm writing to give those who are still suffering hope. There IS a better life out there. You don't have to feel the way you do. If you're toying with the idea of rehab, GO! (but do your homework first and research the hell out of treatment programs.) Rehab gave me a head start, a new mindset and peace. If you're afraid to stop drinking, give it a chance. What's the worst that could happen? You could always go back to drinking if you don't like it.
It hasn't been as difficult as I thought it would be. Cravings won't kill you and they pass. A day turns into 2, which turns into a week, then a month, and now here I am a year later. It doesn't seem that long ago.
Wishing you all peace, at whatever stage you're at.
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Congrats! I'm on Day 9 and hope I can eventually get to a year. I definitely related to the statement you made about promising ourselves when we woke up not to drink only to break that promise by 6 pm. That was me more than 9 days ago. I was so beaten by alcohol because I always broke that promise, and I never thought I could break the cycle. I had underestimated the addiction alcohol can have. But I have now not broken that promise in 9 days and am taking it day by day. Because I could not get a Day 1, I was seriously contemplating rehab, but I knew I would have a lot of explaining to do to family and friends, and that I would have needed to take a leave of absence from my newly found job, which would have been difficult. I think rehab is a great idea and I would have gone if I wasn't able to finally get through my Day 1 through the grace of my Higher Power.
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