Hi everyone, I am back
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Join Date: Jun 2012
Location: Oregon, West Coast, U.S.
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Hi everyone, I am back
I was part of the August group, relapsed a few times in September, never got back to SR during that month because things were so stressful. I stupidly thought since I had 1-2 weeks sober at a time, I could do it on my own. I told myself, "if I no my drink 1-2 times per month, that's not too bad." I was lying to myself and that is absolutely wrong! I cannot drink AT ALL! Yesterday, after 2 weeks sober, I drank and now I feel all the guilt and negative feelings that comes along with it. I want to get right back on the horse and keep moving forward in my recovery. I know I can do this. This was a slip, but it doesn't mean I have to keep drinking now. I am not a failure. I just made a mistake and I know I am strong and dedicated enough to stay sober, I just have to work harder at it!
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Join Date: Sep 2016
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Welcome back. Sorry you had a stressful September. Is it anything that is going to cause you more stress this month? With the holiday season approaching, and all the stressors that come with it, it is a great time to work on this. You got it!
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Join Date: Jul 2016
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Relapse is part of recovery. Step off the crazy train and start again. Realizing that you can't drink at all is big! Do you have a not-drinking plan going forward? AA is a good first step. Lots of supportive people there who have been where you are and who want you to succeed. Good. Luck.
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Join Date: Aug 2015
Location: Atlanta
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Relapse does not have to be part of recovery. It was for you, now that's in the past, so it doesn't have to be again. That is your choice.
Good for you, coming back (lots of times that is one of the hardest things!)- what's the plan now? Like Maud said, now would be a great time for an AA meeting. Today.
Take care of yourself and don't drink, today. Get started with a plan for support that you can develop as you go along and turn to when you need it- you don't need to be stronger or want it more or hope for the best- you need to do.
Good luck.
Good for you, coming back (lots of times that is one of the hardest things!)- what's the plan now? Like Maud said, now would be a great time for an AA meeting. Today.
Take care of yourself and don't drink, today. Get started with a plan for support that you can develop as you go along and turn to when you need it- you don't need to be stronger or want it more or hope for the best- you need to do.
Good luck.
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Join Date: Jul 2015
Location: Phoenix
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Hi Bronzie,
Thinking that I could return to being a social drinker kept me on the crazy train for 30 years. I would dry out for weeks, or even several months, and think I could re-create my scenario. I would start with a small bottle of wine, and then within a week or two I would be drinking a 1.5 liter of wine per night. I tried this experiment hundreds of times......and here I am.
Get off the train now, no need to do so much research!
Thinking that I could return to being a social drinker kept me on the crazy train for 30 years. I would dry out for weeks, or even several months, and think I could re-create my scenario. I would start with a small bottle of wine, and then within a week or two I would be drinking a 1.5 liter of wine per night. I tried this experiment hundreds of times......and here I am.
Get off the train now, no need to do so much research!
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I think many of us have been in the same situation. We do desperately want to believe we can control/manage our alcohol consumption, but we can't. And, it's exhausting work.
Of course, you are not a failure. And, yes, you can do this! It's a good idea to have a plan in place as you begin this journey.
Of course, you are not a failure. And, yes, you can do this! It's a good idea to have a plan in place as you begin this journey.
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Join Date: Apr 2016
Location: northern california
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relapse does not have to be part of recovery it gives people an out to drink.
welcome back bronzie be good to yourself welcome back just take care of today.
Have a recovery plan and get to work, and have a great day.
welcome back bronzie be good to yourself welcome back just take care of today.
Have a recovery plan and get to work, and have a great day.
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