At the grocery store.
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At the grocery store.
Just something that happened today.
I ran into one of my former counselors from IOP. It's happened a couple of times before. She's several years older than I am, and though I think she remembers my face, and that I was in treatment with her, it's unlikely, to me, that she remembers who I am. It's been five years, and she's probably worked with several hundred, if not thousands, of alcoholics over the years.
When I turned around and saw her, and after exchanging hellos, I said, "I've seen you a couple of times before here, but I never said 'Thank you.'"
She replied, "You must be doing well."
Me: "Yes, I am. You made a big difference in my life, and you should know that."
She: "Well, you really wanted it."
Me: "Maybe I did, but I didn't know it at the time. Besides, I couldn't have made it through something like that alone."
She: "You knew a lot more than you think you did."
She's right. One among many things I didn't know that I knew was that I'd someday have this conversation.
I ran into one of my former counselors from IOP. It's happened a couple of times before. She's several years older than I am, and though I think she remembers my face, and that I was in treatment with her, it's unlikely, to me, that she remembers who I am. It's been five years, and she's probably worked with several hundred, if not thousands, of alcoholics over the years.
When I turned around and saw her, and after exchanging hellos, I said, "I've seen you a couple of times before here, but I never said 'Thank you.'"
She replied, "You must be doing well."
Me: "Yes, I am. You made a big difference in my life, and you should know that."
She: "Well, you really wanted it."
Me: "Maybe I did, but I didn't know it at the time. Besides, I couldn't have made it through something like that alone."
She: "You knew a lot more than you think you did."
She's right. One among many things I didn't know that I knew was that I'd someday have this conversation.
I am sure she was correct to say "you really wanted it" but we still need someone with knowledge to make us fully aware of these simple truths - she sounds really good at her vocation
There are some good people out there
There are some good people out there
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Probably not.
The best I can do is imagine that she may have seen something in me about which I was unaware. It happens all the time when I'm practicing psychotherapy. Or just having a conversation with someone. Whether or not that was the case, I bet she's frequently had that kind of experience.
The best I can do is imagine that she may have seen something in me about which I was unaware. It happens all the time when I'm practicing psychotherapy. Or just having a conversation with someone. Whether or not that was the case, I bet she's frequently had that kind of experience.
When we reach out for help, I do think the person sitting across from us sees what we cannot. Their role -- yours, in your profession, EndGame -- is to help equip us with the tools to change that.
I hope so, anyway.
I hope so, anyway.
I don't know how to explain it but after reading thousands of posts you get a sense from some people that they get it. That they are ready. That at least subconsciously they understand what they are dealing with. Their life may be in shambles but through all of the fear they take that first step and are willing to do what is necessary.
It would not surprise me if this is what she saw in you.
It would not surprise me if this is what she saw in you.
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It's much more complicated, but I basically introduce people to themselves as I experience them, help them get to know themselves better than they do, and then help them along with accepting who they are. Mostly all at the same time.
I stopped seeing my addiction counselor almost two years ago. I know she'd remember me if we met. I give her a lot of credit for working with me and not losing faith in me. I was a smart-ass drunk and was difficult at first. But she kept on seeing me and helped me see a way out.
It's great to thank someone who has helped and let them know you made it.
I don't know what she meant by "you knew more than you think you did" but when I hear that it signals to me that I need to trust myself a bit more. Oh man was earning my trust back in myself hard.
I don't know what she meant by "you knew more than you think you did" but when I hear that it signals to me that I need to trust myself a bit more. Oh man was earning my trust back in myself hard.
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Maybe this will help to clarify things a bit, but I know myself better than that. (No known pun intended.)
There are many things that we know without those things ever entering our thought. When something happens to us or when we do something that demonstrates that we knew (without ever thinking about it) what we did not know we knew, it only then makes sense to us that we already knew it. Some people would describe this as "intuition." When a spouse or partner is cheating on us. When a loved one, without ever talking about it, is going through a difficult time. When we're not in a safe place. When we're behaving in a way that challenges our better interests. That we are capable of things like courage and perseverance, without those things ever having been tested. And sometimes it's confused with hindsight bias, when we convince ourselves that we "knew it all along" by virtue of the fact that something becomes obvious to us only after the fact.
I'm content with believing that I knew that I had it in me to get sober, though I didn't know whether or not I wanted to, and didn't know how, if or when I would get sober at the time that I started getting sober, which time I also didn't know at the time.
We either are or we are not. We cannot be both at the same time.
There are many things that we know without those things ever entering our thought. When something happens to us or when we do something that demonstrates that we knew (without ever thinking about it) what we did not know we knew, it only then makes sense to us that we already knew it. Some people would describe this as "intuition." When a spouse or partner is cheating on us. When a loved one, without ever talking about it, is going through a difficult time. When we're not in a safe place. When we're behaving in a way that challenges our better interests. That we are capable of things like courage and perseverance, without those things ever having been tested. And sometimes it's confused with hindsight bias, when we convince ourselves that we "knew it all along" by virtue of the fact that something becomes obvious to us only after the fact.
I'm content with believing that I knew that I had it in me to get sober, though I didn't know whether or not I wanted to, and didn't know how, if or when I would get sober at the time that I started getting sober, which time I also didn't know at the time.
We either are or we are not. We cannot be both at the same time.
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I work in the helping field and its so nice to run into someone who is doing well. So many times we see those who are struggling and those who are doing well, well we dont run into them again. I think thats why there is a tendency for burn out in the field, alot of times not seeing the fruits of our labor just can feel like discouraging, like, am I really making any difference?
Ill bet you made her day today, giving her that feeling that she may have had an impact and a part in your success is going to hold her over for a while, and help her to be passionate when she gets back into the office on Monday.
Thats way awesome!
Ill bet you made her day today, giving her that feeling that she may have had an impact and a part in your success is going to hold her over for a while, and help her to be passionate when she gets back into the office on Monday.
Thats way awesome!
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"You knew a lot more than you think you did."
It's much more complicated, but I basically introduce people to themselves as I experience them, help them get to know themselves better than they do, and then help them along with accepting who they are. Mostly all at the same time.
It can be such an intriguing process and I often find with delay that it helped me in ways I did not even seek help!
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