jodc

Thank you all for being here

GreenSwimmer

Hi jodc... Me too.

We can do this!! Hope you have a good, sober day. Sending positivity your way!

Nalanda

You and me both

"The journey of a thousand miles begins with one step." - Lao Tzu

Zanna

We'll get there x

VirginiaWoof

Me too. But yes, we WILL do it x

Dee74

what happened jodc?

(not to embarrass you or humiliate you - I just wanted to know. It might help you to work out what to do differently this time, too? )

D

jodc

Thank you GreenSwimmer, Nalanda, Zanna, Virginia.
Thank you for letting me know I'm not alone this morning; I so appreciate that.

Yes, it's a new day. OK! We can do this!

Sending every good wish your way!

DolAndel

Same boat here. Lots of us starting over this morning. Good day for it! Stay strong friends.

Zanna

Have any of you got the phone app that tells you how long you've been sober/clean for? I'm finding it helps to watch the time ticking by. Right now it's
1 day 11 hours and 46 minutes. Sounds crazy, but I can imagine if cravings hit, I'll be looking to watch the next full hour coming etc - good distraction Worth a try?
Having said that, as this point, I don't ever want to set eyes on booze again.

gatorman

Yes...I have a app to track the same. Pretty cool.

jodc

Dee, I'm not at all embarrassed by your inquiry; thank you for asking - to be aware of what is happening WHEN it's happening is key in prevention, isn't it?

My self-esteem is in the toilet and I'm stuck - unable to move myself out of it.
I can't communicate my feelings very well - I can't get clarity.
I just don't know what to do with myself.
I'm really at a loss for words other than that...

Thank you for all you do here!

jodc

DolAndel, will be keeping you in mind and heart today as well.

Zanna, no, I don't know that app but I will check it out - Thanks!
Yep, I agree with never wanting to see any more alcohol; at 3 AM I poured what was left down the drain.

I am grateful this morning for all of you...

Dee74

I think many of us can identify with what you're feeling and how you feel ab out yourself. It was very hard for me to reach out.

I'd learned not to bother people, not to show weakness, not to make a scene.I wanted to save myself and not rely on others.

But I needed help, and I forced myself to reach out here many times in the early days, and since.

SR is a site for support.
Use it for what it's here for!

I also think a recovery plan is important - lots of good ideas here:

http://www.soberrecovery.com/forums/...ery-plans.html

jodc

Yes....I was taught at a very young age that my thoughts/feelings were useless so Yeah. I have a hard time opening up and allowing myself to ask for help or even to be a part of anything...
I will learn tho cuz this BS has got to stop.

I have been looking at the plan....I still don't know what it IS....
except no drinking....
I use to volunteer and I am a crafter of greeting cards and jewelry. I can't MAKE myself return to doing these things and I don't know why. Any ideas anyone?

MrPL

Hi jodc,

My take on the plan was slightly different. Not drinking is number one on the list, but this is the only item pointing to my past. Everything else are things that I need t do in order to become the person I want to be.

This not only keeps me busy and sober, but every inch of progress makes me happy for a reason other than just staying sober, so motivation levels have been very high over here. You can achieve that too, set your mind to it and I know you can do it.

Hope that helps.

P

fgo

Jodc,
I can feel you on the self esteem thing. For me it was the booze keeping me down.
Make a plan to get & stay sober for a time and little by little you WILL start feeling better about you. It's kind of like being a fighter and getting knocked out by your opponent(booze). Instead of a ref coming in and stopping the fight giving you time to stop and breathe, Your opponent is standing over you and knocking you out everytime you wake up, not giving you enough time to think clearly. In this fight your not only aa fighter, your the ref. You can do this.

Wtbaf16

Same with me Jodc, day one for the enth time. I feel broken, beaten, and totally worthless. I am also, rapidly, running out of time to sort myself out and save my family. I'm terrified it might already be too late. I want to put my head in the sand and not come out but then I remember I am a mother, wife, and of course full-time employee. Otherwise, I'm not sure why I'd get out of bed.

PiratePrentice

Zanna's app suggestion is a great one! Yesterday was another Day 1 for me, too. I also downloaded an app that tracks progress to the second. As I type this sentence, I have one day, thirteen hours, ten minutes, and fifteen seconds under my belt. I can't to see that day marker go to 2 tonight. And I really want to see the week number get to 1. That's my goal for now. After that, I want to see the month go to 1, as well. It keeps me in the moment and allows my goals to be short and day by day, hour to hour, instead of just having the terrifying mindset of "I'll never drink again." It also gives you trophies for other goals, too- three days, double digits, etc.

I wish you the best! Thank you for posting, and keep us updated!

tate9685

I thought I would post here to give some hope to all of the folks back on day one. I have had a few day ones myself but I want to focus on my plan. Nothing changes if nothing changes so..... The changes I have made are that I now go to AA 2 to 3 times a week, I make sure to read and post here daily, I consistently move my body by doing yoga and walking, and I'm reading the AA Big book at night before I go to sleep. I really want to keep my sober life so I'm staying in recovery instead of tip toeing around the edges. It's not always easy to follow through but I feel so much better after I do. Dee is right. You gotta have a plan.

january161992

thats the ticket!

its a we thing

not an i thing