Dandelionpaints

Binge drank all weekend.

Have massive hanxiety. Massive. Every time I think back to last night I get cold with fear that I did something wrong or said something stupid.

I know I didn't. And I know that I was fine. But I can't stop panicking.

I have to be done with drinking. I can't keep doing this..

So here's to day 1. Spent mostly panicked.

Can u undo the damage? Is it reversible?

PurpleKnight

Welcome to the Forum Dandelionpaints!!

bexxed

You can stop drinking today, and commit to today, every day. You can commit to one day where you don't create damage and every day you do that, you have no damage to deal with. I did that 31 days ago and it's working for me.

Delilah1

Welcome to SR! That anxiety will definitely lessen with sobriety. This is a wonderfully supportive community. Spend some time reading and posting and figure out what works best for you.

In addition to the Newcomers thread you should check in on the 24 hour thread daily, and also join the September class. Having people who are at the same point in their recovery journey is very helpful.

Berrybean

Welcome. And yes, you can get sober and work on your recovery. You may well need to get some support and a plan, but it's all possible. If i can do it anyone can. Nothing special about me.

Soberwolf

Welcome nice to meet you

Dee74

It's absolutely possible to start afresh with a Chapter Two, Dandelion paints.

Welcome to SR - you'll find a ton of support here

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Summerfall

Oh man. I don't miss that! I would by dying from anxiety and palpitations when I was hung over. Day 36 here and my anxiety is atleast half of what it used to be! Hang in there!!

Dandelionpaints

Thank you. I'm so glad to meet people like me here. I wish I was on day 36.. But I'll get there. Day two so far still feeling anxious but much better..

VirginiaWoof

I'm on Day 2 as well. We can do this - looking forward to celebrating milestones with you x

August252015

Good job, dandelionpaints. You can have many more sober days ahead.

What are your plans for the day?

[BTW when I first saw your user name, I read "dandelionpAnts" - I thought that was so funny and cute! Ha.]

D122y

Drinking alter chemicals in the brain.

Stop drinking, the brain normalizes. Depending on the years and amounts drinking, it takes up to 2 years to stabilize a nd get used to normal.

Drinking next weekend, because i have been a good boy, is a relapse.

The anxiety and crave strength escalates.

People die from this stuff.

lessgravity

ANXIETY -

it is a constant state of life for most of us in the later stages of our drunkenness. Cold sweats at 4am, panic attacks midday at the office, racing thoughts...

What is amazing is how it is all self-created, self-perpetuated and, when the drunkenness stops, how it is defeated by the same self that engendered it.

Life is still hard. There are long stretches of sadness, there is still discomfort and suffering.

But lord, to say goodbye to the anxiety is one of the greatest feelings of my adult life.

Stay strong.

meowychristmas

Dandelion :hugs: I am way too familiar with hanxiety and being in complete paranoid panic mode the day after drinking. What did I say, do, post on social media, etc. It's such an awful feeling and really tough to let go most of the time, especially when our brains won't give up on calling us bad names and making us worry so much. I try to tell myself that I'm human and I make mistakes. Repeating a mantra such as, I am a good person, despite my slip ups, can sometimes help. You will be okay. <3

Summerfall

LOL I thought it was dandelionpants at first too and had a little chuckle.