jumped off wagon
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jumped off wagon
Hi all,
Well I screwed up and fell off the wagon, I had been sober since 8/20/2016, last night I got really drunk, today I'm going to an AA meeting, and all I can do is promise myself that I will be sober for the next 24 hours, everything else is just junk, but I can gather myself and do 24 hours.
Feeling mad, and upset at myself, I just can't find the words to truly describe what I'm feeling, the sun came up an hour ago, and I'm doing well but just have to be sober for 24 hours.
I just need, no I want 24 hours sober.
Well I screwed up and fell off the wagon, I had been sober since 8/20/2016, last night I got really drunk, today I'm going to an AA meeting, and all I can do is promise myself that I will be sober for the next 24 hours, everything else is just junk, but I can gather myself and do 24 hours.
Feeling mad, and upset at myself, I just can't find the words to truly describe what I'm feeling, the sun came up an hour ago, and I'm doing well but just have to be sober for 24 hours.
I just need, no I want 24 hours sober.
If you want it, it's there to be had. None of the truly good things in life come without a price. Something I found that helps me stay focused. I've always had eccentric hobbies. I was good at most of them, but I never really gave it 100% because I always put drinking first. So now I have decided to take 2 of my hobbies and really focus on them, to take them to the next level (bamboo fly rod making and carving duck decoys).
I just got back from my morning AA meeting. I always feel better afterwards.
You can put it all together. Keep talking to people here, doesn't always have to be about drinking.
I just got back from my morning AA meeting. I always feel better afterwards.
You can put it all together. Keep talking to people here, doesn't always have to be about drinking.
Going to AA is great. Doing AA is better. Getting a sponsor and working the steps. For me I went 6 times a week and did not drink inbetween meetings. I failed more times than I can count but when I did what people with long term sobriety did I never drank again
One day at a time has been working for me. Sometimes one hour or one minute at a time. Thinking about never drinking again is just too overwhelming and all that really matters is today anyway. I'll worry about tomorrow when tomorrow comes...
Glad you made it back! So many don't...
Glad you made it back! So many don't...
I'm glad you got in here, shared what happened and got to a meeting. Those are actions that clearly move you in the direction of a better, sober life.
Keep that up; action in honor of sobriety.
Before you know it, your life will improve more than you can imagine.
Keep that up; action in honor of sobriety.
Before you know it, your life will improve more than you can imagine.
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