Hard to find words...
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Hard to find words...
I have spent the last couple of hours perusing this site and aside of the information/resources available which is outstanding, it's just been nice to read your posts - people here working on themselves and helping others... it's comforting and gives me hope that I can get it together.
Thank you for being here.
Thank you for being here.
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Welcome jodc,
What a nice thing to say
I haven't been here all that long myself, but there is a very sincere spirit of compassion and acceptance here at SR. I hope that, whatever your journey, you will find this to be a supportive place. We'll be here if and when you'd like to talk some more.
Be well
What a nice thing to say
I haven't been here all that long myself, but there is a very sincere spirit of compassion and acceptance here at SR. I hope that, whatever your journey, you will find this to be a supportive place. We'll be here if and when you'd like to talk some more.Be well
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Thanks for your kind welcome!
A bit about me:
I am 57 years old, a social drinker until 2011 when I dove into the deep; since then, I come home from work, grab the bottle and swig it. Last night I actually drank 1/2 of a fifth; out of the norm for me as I usually don't consume that much but I did and if it happened once, it can happen again. It's going to stop.
I have to make a few changes in my life but I've got this thing called denial that likes to hang out with me - relationship denial, fear denial, drinking denial, lying denial... just this big old wall of "I ain't gonna look at that!" I really do want it gone.
I was introduced to AA in my early 20s; my dad left this earth with 18 years of sobriety behind him so I know the value of the program - the fellowship, support, friendships - all the blessings one doesn't necessarily see beforehand that come from doing the work. I have been blessed with this experience.
I am a naturally optimistic person. Even when things are really rough, I am more proactive than not. But right now, as I reach out for help, I find myself feeling a lack of strength that usually comes alongside that proactive nature; where is optimism for me and what I am doing??? Any ideas? Maybe considering letting go of denial has something to do with it? Does that make sense?
I am happy to be here.
I will do my best to ask for help when I don't want/think I need to. I will do my best to participate. I will do my best to utilize all this site has to offer. And I will do my best to be there for you too!
Thank you for listening, Thank you for being here!
A bit about me:
I am 57 years old, a social drinker until 2011 when I dove into the deep; since then, I come home from work, grab the bottle and swig it. Last night I actually drank 1/2 of a fifth; out of the norm for me as I usually don't consume that much but I did and if it happened once, it can happen again. It's going to stop.
I have to make a few changes in my life but I've got this thing called denial that likes to hang out with me - relationship denial, fear denial, drinking denial, lying denial... just this big old wall of "I ain't gonna look at that!" I really do want it gone.
I was introduced to AA in my early 20s; my dad left this earth with 18 years of sobriety behind him so I know the value of the program - the fellowship, support, friendships - all the blessings one doesn't necessarily see beforehand that come from doing the work. I have been blessed with this experience.
I am a naturally optimistic person. Even when things are really rough, I am more proactive than not. But right now, as I reach out for help, I find myself feeling a lack of strength that usually comes alongside that proactive nature; where is optimism for me and what I am doing??? Any ideas? Maybe considering letting go of denial has something to do with it? Does that make sense?
I am happy to be here.
I will do my best to ask for help when I don't want/think I need to. I will do my best to participate. I will do my best to utilize all this site has to offer. And I will do my best to be there for you too!
Thank you for listening, Thank you for being here!
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Join Date: Dec 2012
Location: Orcas Island, Washington
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Welcome, jodc! I am glad to hear that AA is part of your recovery, and hope you continue to read and post here at SoberRecovery.
These are some good threads to join:
http://www.soberrecovery.com/forums/...rt-2-a-25.html
http://www.soberrecovery.com/forums/...ml#post6104368
These are some good threads to join:
http://www.soberrecovery.com/forums/...rt-2-a-25.html
http://www.soberrecovery.com/forums/...ml#post6104368
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Hi jodc - it's great to have you with us.
I was older too when I found myself dependent on it. In fact, because I did nothing to help myself I was drinking all day in the end. I'm glad you've made the decision to get free. I agree that SR is a comforting place. Once I realized I wasn't unique I never felt alone again. You can do this - happy you are here.
I was older too when I found myself dependent on it. In fact, because I did nothing to help myself I was drinking all day in the end. I'm glad you've made the decision to get free. I agree that SR is a comforting place. Once I realized I wasn't unique I never felt alone again. You can do this - happy you are here.
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