Wake up call
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Join Date: Dec 2015
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Wake up call
Hi everyone - I haven't been posting for a while as I've been not doing well with my drinking. Of course, I chose to ignore the escalation until last night when I had a bad spill and either bruised or fractured a rib. My husband is taking me to Urgent Care this afternoon. The universe has been telling me it's time to stop the damn drinking and I need to make that commitment. Back to AA, this site and making my sobriety the most important thing in my life. Day 1...
This is my wake up call. Thanks for letting me come back and start over. I want this to be my last Day 1.
This is my wake up call. Thanks for letting me come back and start over. I want this to be my last Day 1.
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Welcome back Beanie Baby, glad to hear you are seeking help here and elsewhere. I hope your injuries are not too severe. You may want to consider bringing up your drinking at the Urgent Care today as well, they may know of local resources you can use to help supplement AA and SR.
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Well - I broke a rib and have some air between lung and rib. No need for hospital but they need to take more X-rays in 2 weeks to make sure it's stable. Super painful.
I am ready to leave alcohol behind and get on with a much better life. I'm looking forward to Day 2. Thanks to all for the kind words. This forum is a godsend. Xoxo. I'll check in again tomorrow.
I am ready to leave alcohol behind and get on with a much better life. I'm looking forward to Day 2. Thanks to all for the kind words. This forum is a godsend. Xoxo. I'll check in again tomorrow.
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Join Date: Sep 2012
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That is the hard thing about alcoholism. No matter what we do it only gets worse. I have always loved this quote from the big book.
MOST OF US have been unwilling to admit we were real alcoholics. No person likes to think he is bodily and mentally different from his fellows. Therefore, it is not surprising that our drinking careers have been characterized by countless vain attempts to prove we could drink like other people. The idea that somehow, someday he will control and enjoy his drinking is the great obsession of every abnormal drinker. The persistence of this illusion is astonishing. Many pursue it into the gates of insanity or death.
We learned that we had to fully concede to our innermost selves that we were alcoholics. This is the first step in recovery. The delusion that we are like other people, or presently may be, has to be smashed.
We alcoholics are men and women who have lost the ability to control our drinking. We know that no real alcoholic ever recovers control. All of us felt at times that we were regaining control, but such intervals-usually brief-were inevitably followed by still less control, which led in time to pitiful and incomprehensible demoralization. We are convinced to a man that alcoholics of our type are in the grip of a progressive illness. Over any considerable period we get worse, never better.
MOST OF US have been unwilling to admit we were real alcoholics. No person likes to think he is bodily and mentally different from his fellows. Therefore, it is not surprising that our drinking careers have been characterized by countless vain attempts to prove we could drink like other people. The idea that somehow, someday he will control and enjoy his drinking is the great obsession of every abnormal drinker. The persistence of this illusion is astonishing. Many pursue it into the gates of insanity or death.
We learned that we had to fully concede to our innermost selves that we were alcoholics. This is the first step in recovery. The delusion that we are like other people, or presently may be, has to be smashed.
We alcoholics are men and women who have lost the ability to control our drinking. We know that no real alcoholic ever recovers control. All of us felt at times that we were regaining control, but such intervals-usually brief-were inevitably followed by still less control, which led in time to pitiful and incomprehensible demoralization. We are convinced to a man that alcoholics of our type are in the grip of a progressive illness. Over any considerable period we get worse, never better.
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