KPForever

I'm 5 days sober today.
Today I did something I would never have done. I usually have a bottle hidden at work. Today I went to work early, and even though I did think to drink it, I didn't - I spilled it down the sink.
My body is finally recovering, drinking even a little will reverse that, I know.

Now i'm home for the day. I feel sad, lonely, irritable, and so weepy. I don't want to talk to anyone.
I don't want a drink, but I do want to drink. I don't know.
If there was any alcohol in front of me at the moment, I probably would take it.

I have no plans or obsessions to go out and get it though.

Dee74

A great step forward there KPF

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2muchpain

Your doing great KPF. Stay strong. Better days are coming. John

Solarion

Five days is great! Riding out the blues sober is the way forward. There's no benefit in poisoning oneself.

january161992

You've been given a valuable gift!

totfit

If it did not get unimaginably better, I would have not stayed sober. It does get unimaginably better. Just have to get through this part. It will pay off. Way to stick it out this far!

uncorked

KP, it's ok, what you're feeling is very normal! Just know that each day will get a little better. Your emotions might be finally coming out now that the alcohol is out of your system. Go ahead and cry if you feel like it. You might not feel like talking to anyone, but you posted here so you must want support. Yoga, guided meditation -- there are some good free videos online -- tea and good books all helped me through this part. Oh, and Dateline, Forensic Files, etc. (I like those crime shows..)

Soberwolf

Big congrats on day 5

Elicia08

I'm on day 9. At day 5 I felt just the way you did. So sad, cried off and on all day, didn't want a drink but really wanted to be drunk. I made it through and it has been better. Can't say it's all been great but I know a drink (or 20) would just make it worse... Hang in there...

Eli

ALinNS

You are doing great!!!!

Andrew

MLD51

I was weepy and emotional for a couple of weeks. There was just so much crap I hadn't really dealt with while I was drinking that all came to the surface. I had no desire to drink, though. It was tough to be feeling all of those emotions and having to face up to them, but I'm glad I did. I've never ever regretted my decision to stop. With the help of treatment and AA and SR, I have learned how to face life and its ups and downs without drinking. Stick around. There's tons of help here.

PurpleKnight

Day 5 is fantastic!! Keep it going!!