Hammers

I an now going to sleep. It is
00.15 Tuesday CET here..

When I wake, it will be day four.
I've never been dry this long in
years.

Good luck and courage to everyone!!!

We can all beat this!!!

Thanks,

Nicholas.

foryoumyson

awesome keep on going !

Hevyn

Yes we can, Nicholas. There's no doubt.
Congratulations on your Day 4. A great achievement.

Hammers

Thanks, I may be back, sleep is erratic,
ten hours then two, or nothing, but
day four is here!!

Day five tomorrow!!

Dee74

'grats Hammers

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Ghostlight1

Way to go on day four. That was always the killer day for me. Felt better, hangover gone and it was off again. You sound determined and that's great.
Just remember, you never have to drink again.
Many more sober days to you.

Soberwolf

Congratulations Hammers

Ironhorse1

if you can get through the first three days, you can get through anything! Good work.

U75

Congratulations. Keep it up and stay with us here at SR. Next time you have the urge, post here first!

PurpleKnight

Fantastic Nicholas!!

Darwinia

Good going. How was the fishing?

Hammers

Hi,
Didn't go, applied for the permit via e mail though.

Had a very bad nightmare, very bad last night. It scared
me so I hid away in my flat all day and took a few sleeping
pills. Not been awake long. 23.30h CET here.

Pills are not good, but then I did not drink and I don't
have a problem with sleeping pills. Just booze.
They are the herbal ones you can get over the counter.

Seem to knock me out, but I do wake feeling good, apart
from yesterday!!

Belier

Hi Hammer, keep it up, I started to really pick up after 7 days of no drinking and then things gradually get better and better. I am really pleased that you are giving this a real solid go. You sound like a very talented man and I am looking forward to seeing how things unfold for you. Be strong and confident in yourself. You can really do this and it will be more worth it than you would every have imagined.

Hammers

Thanks Ring. I will keep trying.

I am not that talented. A talented man
would not put himself through alcohol
abuse the way I have. And have done so
for nearly thirty years, but now it is time
to stop.

Stop for good.

Thanks..

PS I may have made an error, here where
I am it is wednesday morning, start of day five.
May have posted yesterday it was day five..!!

Dee74

We're all kinds here - talented, brilliant, caring, senstive.

It's true addiction is no respecter of any of those things - that doesn't mean we don't have those qualities tho

Putting ourselves down is the old way. It made it easier to drink if you thought you were crap...at least for me.

Congrats on day 5

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Hammers

Thanks Dee, I think it may be time for me to speak
to a professional. I have been a chef for years. I am
also a qualified mechanical engineer.

In the UK where I grew up I was an engineer first,
for British Aerospace, military engineering, went
to Kuwait as Tech support, after the first Gulf war,
but when Britain is not fighting, there is no work so I
went into catering. And I have always shifted between
the two since then.

I saw terrible things in Kuwait after the liberation, things
I still can't talk about, even to myself. Retribution to innocent
Iraqis living there. Things I could do nothing about. I was only
Tech support. I spent time with the US Navy. I was only in
my early twenties. Over the last few days, my mind is a mess,
things I have never thought about are in the front of my mind...

sleepie

Hammers that is a brave share.

Hammers

I am not sure if I am better sober.
These things are not there when I am
drunk or drinking..

sleepie

I have only 7 months sober but I do know that drinking won't change anything.

Dee74

That's your AV talking. This is early recovery Nicholas - it's a transitional period, and yes, it's rough.

It's not the way things will always be though - things do get better and easier.

Don't downplay your drinking life either - look back to your first post - your drinking life was *awful*.

I'm sorry for what you saw in The Gulf. I would expect that a lot of guys have PTSD from that. Please do think about getting some professional help.

Going back to drinking is not an effective treatment. Other vets here will also tell you that.


At least this way you're getting somewhere - there's a light at the end of the tunnel.

...and you're not alone

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