darkstarpa

After my last breakdown Tuesday night, i was upset with myself.
Sobered up around 2 pm on wednesday. Did not feel normal until thursday.
Tried my best, promised myself, would get better. I pray for a bigger heart in myself. Bigger heart to walk the road😊
I sense my wife is getting frustrated, due to my broken promises. I pray i get better this week.

2 days sober.

Steely

And it gets easier and better. Lots of distraction to keep you occupied. Your wife will be happy too.

Dee74

Praying is great but action is better darkstar.

Are you still working on cutting back or you coming around to the idea of abstinence?
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darkstarpa

Abstinence.
after my Tuesday night episode earlier in the week, I required help and guidance. My father who is 73 called me on Friday to see how I was doing etc. I did not pick up the phone as I knew what he wanted to talk about. Got a text from him today, asking me to call him. I talked with him for around 5 minutes today. Small talk, it turned to my drinking and if I am okay. It is hard for me to talk about it unless I get pressed on how much I am drinking daily/weekly etc. talking about my problem, I can do . Just not sure how to treat it or if I can take care of it on my own. odds favor I can't fix it on my own when talking with my father. I have trouble understanding how I got to this point at my age. Dammit, I should be a better person/friend/husband/brother/uncle

Steely

After you stop drinking these things will come. If your plan is abstinence make a plan to stop. That doesn't mean in 5 years time

Dee74

You can turn things around darkstar - never too late for Chapter 2

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MariahGayle

Grab hold of sobriety DS, good things come with sobriety, most specially, being there for those that love & care for us. Know that we are here to support & encourage you & you are not alone in this. Be kind to yourself.

darkstarpa

thanks. for your words
I sorta feel like I need to check into a treatment location for a week or 2.
Take 7 days off of work for PTO and go to a center.
Not much of an AA person, but never been to a meeting or plan too.
I sorta deal with my problems with experts or through pain.

Steely

If you feel you need a treatment centre then maybe you do. We don't get thoughts like that for no reason.

Soberwolf

Glad your here with us good job on day 2

PurpleKnight

You can do this, Day 2 is fantastic!!

MIRecovery

If you are looking for experts find an AA meeting that has people with long term sobriety. Professionals have education AA has solutions.

I have gone through two high end long term rehabs an am a walking encyclopedia on alcoholism. The knowledge is a good thing but it does not teach me how to live life sober. For that I need to see how others are doing it.

There are many paths to sobriety but when we say we won't do something we dramatically reduce our chances of success.

The reason I'm sober is I was willing to do anything to get sober. The more tools I have in my bag of tricks the better. Sobriety is about change and change always requires us to do things we don't want to

Leezer

Indeed. After reading chapter one for many, many years I am living proof that there IS a chapter two. And it is far more interesting than chapter 1!!

MIRecovery

I'm a slow study because it took me 30 years to get through chapter 1. I will say with absolute certainty that chapter 2 is a whole lot better than chapter 1