Hendrix has a plan and is checking in.....
Hendrix has a plan and is checking in.....
Hello folks
Thanks to the caring non judgmental welcome back I received yesterday from this forum I'm now on day 2 again. I'm taking sobriety more seriously than ever before and looking at the 1 1/2 years I had under my belt as a learning experience. With hindsight the last of my recent series of benders didn't happen without warning - and I see that had I had a proper, written plan covering early warning signs and crisis planning the misery of relapse could have been avoided.
After a day yesterday feeling like death warmed up I finally snatched some fitful sleep through the anxiety and restlessness and feel more optimistic today. I don't want a drink yet - I'm enjoying the first cup of tea I've had in a week - and if I do feel cravings I'll be straight back here.
Today I'm going to eat some healthy food little and often, clean up a bit and go out for a walk somewhere lovely. I'll be browsing this forum a bit too. My plan is taking shape in my head and I'll be putting it to paper in due course and I'm determined to stay sober this time and really work at it and enjoy it.
Hope you all have a great day
Thanks to the caring non judgmental welcome back I received yesterday from this forum I'm now on day 2 again. I'm taking sobriety more seriously than ever before and looking at the 1 1/2 years I had under my belt as a learning experience. With hindsight the last of my recent series of benders didn't happen without warning - and I see that had I had a proper, written plan covering early warning signs and crisis planning the misery of relapse could have been avoided.
After a day yesterday feeling like death warmed up I finally snatched some fitful sleep through the anxiety and restlessness and feel more optimistic today. I don't want a drink yet - I'm enjoying the first cup of tea I've had in a week - and if I do feel cravings I'll be straight back here.
Today I'm going to eat some healthy food little and often, clean up a bit and go out for a walk somewhere lovely. I'll be browsing this forum a bit too. My plan is taking shape in my head and I'll be putting it to paper in due course and I'm determined to stay sober this time and really work at it and enjoy it.
Hope you all have a great day
Good work at getting back to living sober. Having a plan is so important. Mine is simple. I will not drink today and I will never change my mind. That's from AVRT.
Hope you enjoy the walk and see day three on the horizon with clear vision.
Ken
Hope you enjoy the walk and see day three on the horizon with clear vision.
Ken
My plan is and always will be preventative medicine. Did I need an AA meeting yesterday, did I need to post on SR, did I need to pray, did I need to read recovery literature?
I do these things so I don't need to do them. I do them because they keep me away from the edge of taking the first drink
I do these things so I don't need to do them. I do them because they keep me away from the edge of taking the first drink
Yo Hendrix
Cool handle
You are talking to a guy here who has had a few cracks at sobriety
Longest dry spell 7 years
Current under a year
Glad you are back
Time to make the Spanish castle out of concrete so it doesn't crumble to the sea
V
Cool handle
You are talking to a guy here who has had a few cracks at sobriety
Longest dry spell 7 years
Current under a year
Glad you are back
Time to make the Spanish castle out of concrete so it doesn't crumble to the sea
V
Well I'm on to day 3 again - it's like being back to square one. I'm angry and miserable again and hate the world - especially those that seem to drink "normally".
Having been here before 18 months ago I know these feelings will go eventually so maybe I can learn from my mistakes.
What I do know is that a drink might help remove these feelings for a very brief time but it was drink that caused them in the first place.
I'm going to let the day unfold as it will, try not to control it but accept it for how it is........but I will not drink.
I didn't eat very well yesterday so I'll try to do that today - but I did go out for a couple of walks which really helped chill me out.
Have a great day
Having been here before 18 months ago I know these feelings will go eventually so maybe I can learn from my mistakes.
What I do know is that a drink might help remove these feelings for a very brief time but it was drink that caused them in the first place.
I'm going to let the day unfold as it will, try not to control it but accept it for how it is........but I will not drink.
I didn't eat very well yesterday so I'll try to do that today - but I did go out for a couple of walks which really helped chill me out.
Have a great day
Well today was hard as hell - was close to going out and getting as much booze as I felt I needed to escape from the universe that seemed to be out to get me - but I didn't and I'm now safe on bed having eaten and looking forward to waking up to a whole new brighter day tomorrow - hope I can get to sleep
Let me tell you what I learned in rehab. Relapse happens before you even think to take a drink. It starts when your coping skills begin to fail. For example (I use you here but I don't mean you personally) Maybe you become overwhelmed at work because you can't manage your time effectively. Or you fight with your spouse and things go unresolved. Or your kids are out of control because you can't say no. Not coping well with life's stresses creates an easy path to contemplation of a drink and then to the drink itself. Try thinking of the origin of your stresses and change the way you react to them. Have a plan to squash the stress. To go with the stresses I listed you could try not over scheduling your work day or not plan meetings at the end of the day. Or you could work on communicating your real feelings to your spouse to reconcile before it snowballs out of control. Or you can start small with your kids by saying no to them and following through without giving in. There is more to being sober than just quitting the drink. We have behaviors to change. We need to change the way we think. I hope I am making sense in what I am trying to say here.
Bug
Bug
Thanks for the support and input folks. What a difference a day makes - all the perceived stresses of yesterday don't seem to matter much today. Sleep is an amazing healer even if it did take a few hours of restlessness and irritation to get there!
Day 4 now and I'm not going to drink today so grateful I didn't drink yesterday.
Day 4 now and I'm not going to drink today so grateful I didn't drink yesterday.
It will these feelings will continue to pass I was an all day everyday drinker by the end of my drinking it wasn't living it wasnt even existing it was just decay & destruction of anything good that was still within me
The early days are the hardest and temptation is high but your doing the right thing & to quote Least 'Ive never woken up & regretted not drinking'
The early days are the hardest and temptation is high but your doing the right thing & to quote Least 'Ive never woken up & regretted not drinking'
You've been here before,...you know you won't always feel like this..it will pass
Lean on SR as much as you need to - ever joined a monthly support thread?
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