Gratitude for day 20.
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Gratitude for day 20.
It's been a while since I've reached 20 straight days of abstinence. My main feeling used to be elation.
Today I feel humility, knowing that the strength I thought I had could not stand up to addiction, at least not on its own, without a plan and support. The anger at feeling I have to change, the embarrassment at admitting my problem, the loneliness of losing my friends vodka, gin and whiskey. I was fighting myself. No matter how strong I might be, how do you beat yourself?
I never truly understood gratitude until now. I thought I was strong and realising that I needed more than that to reach even a meager 20 days has humbled me and made me immensely grateful to the universe for providing me with the support that it did.
Part of that gratitude is to SR and its band of merry members. Thank you.
KP
Today I feel humility, knowing that the strength I thought I had could not stand up to addiction, at least not on its own, without a plan and support. The anger at feeling I have to change, the embarrassment at admitting my problem, the loneliness of losing my friends vodka, gin and whiskey. I was fighting myself. No matter how strong I might be, how do you beat yourself?
I never truly understood gratitude until now. I thought I was strong and realising that I needed more than that to reach even a meager 20 days has humbled me and made me immensely grateful to the universe for providing me with the support that it did.
Part of that gratitude is to SR and its band of merry members. Thank you.
KP
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